I don't know if anyone will sit down and take the time to read this...but I really have some shit on my heart. Hear it goes...

I just have one question...is it ever ok to stop loving some one after they have hurt you? If you want to reach out to them...help them when they need it...take the pain away....even though they have hurt you is it still ok? What do you do when you have touched some one that you used to love but no longer can because they have hurt you...but you want to reach out to them? But then you remember he is talking to one of your friends...damn...how you gonna do me like that daddy? After I have broken my neck for you...after I have been through hell with you...after I gave you all I have including my heart. My friends say that I am a hard lover...I love hard!! I wanted to share my world with you...have a family with you...but I guess that hope is down the drain...They say that at the age of 18 you don't know what love is...but I know I loved you...I needed you...and now it hurts me everytime I see you...Every time I hear your name being mentioned...it hurts to know that you didn't give a damn about me to make it work...to make our love last...And now I'm stuck with the memories that stain my heart everytime they cross my mind.

But wait there's more.....

Is there someone out there that will love me for me? Not because the saw my picture on myspace and thought I was a freak...or not because all they want to do is fuck? Or no...not because they say they love me because they know thats what I want to hear? Will I ever meet someone that has goals in there life...that don't have a child by every female out here (no offense) or that can get they thug on but never change when they been with they niggas for a while or when they around they niggas. One that won't break my heart after I have worked to hard to make sure it was perfect so I could give it to them. A grown ass man that ain't looking for me just to say they have a "Sweet young thang." One that ain't ashamed to taste me...just like I ain't ashame to taste them...one who won't look at that last sentences and say: "Damn, shorty get down like that...let me send her ass a message." A person that knows it takes time and patiences in a relationship to get that far...Some one I can give my heart to...and not get it thrown back in my face all fucked up and broken...Is there some one out there like that??

"You don't just pick up and leave and leave me sick like that
You don't throw away what we had, just like that
I was just fuckin them girls, I was gon' get right back
They say you can't turn a bad girl good
But once a good girl's goin bad, she's gone forever..
And more forever
Shit I gotta live with the fact I did you wrong forever"

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