Socrates Speaks (LONG!)
 

I am more than bored. So i'm gunna talk about a bunch of shit, it might end up long but its cool...this is actually interesting, it has a lot about love, and friendship and shit, if you wanna know the real Socrates (Cameron Edwards) here is your chance...

Have you ever lived somewhere that was perfect for you? I lived there about 5 months ago. First couple weeks I lived there I stayed inside watching movies like it was nothing. The I ran out of movies to watch. So my brother had gone outside with his BB gun, and this is the hood, so he earned some automatic friends. Some lil dirty ass niggas named Keandre and Kewon. So he
chilled with them. I had my gun too but still hadn't gone outside since we moved there really. So one day my lil brother runs by the window ith like 20 people, i'm like "Fuck it." Went outside with my heat, my brother saw me and intriduced me to everyone. Most of em was like 8-11 but some of em was real cool. Pookie was coo. So we was runnin around cappin eachother and shit
and this nigga named Darrel came outside. He was about my age so I chilled with him for like two days, but he was never outside and shit so I ended up staying back inside. But soon, I was out swimming and these two mixed niggas (Christian-13, Lauren-10) came swimming and I was pretty cool with them. So Christian was goin out with this white girl with ass and HUGE titties named Megan and SHE had a friend named Precious who was this big ugly
monster lookin bitch. Shes not that bad, its just not my style. So Megan tried hookin me up with Precious. I'm like.....nah. So I would chill with Lauren, Megan, Christian and Precious every night at the back of a coffee truck. We would just talk or w/e. One night the wanted to leave the house in the middle of the night and go over to the elementar school and do whatever smoke
weed and shit. So i'm like "coo". I was PLANNING on going but my mom left that night so I had to stay and watch my little brothers. So next day I found out Megan and Christian fucked and shit, Precious was mad cuz I wasn't there which made me feel better about not being there.
So a couple days later i'm talkin to my nigga Christina just by his house, he says he loves her. Then SOMETHING happened that I can't even remember anymore and they broke up THE SAME DAY. So my nigga wanted me to go over and try and hook them back up or w/e, so I went and talked to Megan by her house for like an hour and we got real close. That night Christian went somewhere and I went skinny-dipping with Megan and.......yes it happened. (but he doesnt know so shhhhhhh)
ANYWAYS, I can't even remember what happened to cause this but we didn't chill around Megan and Precious anymore at our apartments and we went on over to the green apartments. (apartments are named by color in the hood white folks...lol) So my nigga Christian tried to hook me up with this black bitch who wasn't fat but was more than thick. I'm like "no way" So we
started chillin at the green apts. Me, Christian, Pookie, and Lauren. Stephany was somehow "mine" (the black bitch) just cuz we was sposed to go out. Christian was going out with this girl named Wayneesha-14 for liek 1 day and the rest of the time Wayneesha was just a shared ho. We would chill after dark and never kiss or anything just all the foreplay and then we would bounce, cuz we're pimps like that.
Time goes on...
So blah, i'm still sposed to be goin out with Stephany, but this OTHER girl named Ashley-12 lives there but is only there on the weekends. So Friday night I was flirting with her, I thought she was cute, playing football and showing off and all that shit. So the NEXT day, after she had everyone sleep-over, Wayneesha tells me that Ashley LIKES me. I'm thinkin this is ill as fuck.
Turns out she has a boyfriend. Nigga named Albert, he only came over like once a fuckin month so i'm talkin to her like "Why you hesitating?" soooo later that day, Albert comes. My niggas want me to fight him for her. But the nigga is cool, buys me some chips and soda at the store, so I feel dirty. So I went like an hour hesitating and shit about what to do with this nigga. I ended up just telling him wassup and he doesn't give a fuck and was like "You can have her", breaks up with her, shes heartbroken, I try comforting her but she ignores me. :(
Blah blah blah, I still like her, I never know about how she feels about me. Christian and all my niggas tryin to hook me up but it never happens. So I give up a bit. Her friend Jenny tells me she is still gettin over Albert and the SAME DAY she gets with this nekkid-molerat-lookin nigga named Gabriel. I was pissed yo. So I am like "BLAH!" I try gettin closer to her but it never
happens. She goes out with someone, is on the rebound, and picks another nigga. I started writing her letters. EVERYDAY. Sometimes 2 pages, most of the time 1, a couple were 3 pages. I couldn't stop thinking about her...
During all that time, Wayneesha went out with Pookie, they broke up and I was coo with both so I would talk to them a lot. I started talkin to Wayneesha on the phone like ohhhhh 2-3 hours a night, I felt like a gay dude but I could just talk to her easily. We would talk about random shit and soon enough me and her became best friends, even over me and Christian, if she felt bad, I was there, if I felt bad, she was there.
So back to Ashley...
me and her was constantly at odds. I would hate her but forgive her for anything the next second and she would hate me and hold a grudge for a good amount of time.But soon enough I realized I loved her. It was strange for me to love her considering all the shit I had already done in my life
in terms of girls. Anyways, I think she somehow notiiced that, or Wayneesha told her, but she started coming on to me. She gave me pictures all the time. She talked to me all the time. She would call me a lot. All that shit. So one day I brought my baby brother Rueben-2 over there cuz I was watching him that day. I was playing with him and just being a good brother cuz thats just
the type of nigga I am. So we went home and as soon as I get in the phone rings and shes at her house with Wayneesha soooo I talked to Wayneesha first shes all "Tell Ben I said hi!" I'm like ok, then Wayneesha gave the phone to Ashley and I was talking to her and she just told me to
shut up all of a sudden and I was about to hang up on a bitch but she started singing a song about how much she wanted me...crazy shit.*eyes water up* So i'm like damn, we stopped talkin after like 10 seconds after she was done cuz I couldn't believe what I just heard, I didn't know what to
say. Just imagine the girl you "love" singing something like that to you.
So the next day I tell all my niggas, Christian, Pookie, Lauren, and their obvious answer is for me to ask her out. I'm like "fasho". So I waited till she was alone. Just standing by her house
chillin. So I asked her...(I remember this EXACTLY)
Me: Was what you said last night on the phone real?
Her: Yeah.
Me: Well I guess you coulda seen this coming, but, you wanna go out with me?
Her: I don't know.
She walks away and goes and sits somewhere and starts crying.

I'm like "WTF!!!!? :cussing: " So mother fuck I was just like fuck it. Went and chilled with my niggas, later that day, right before she goes inside she comes over to me and says "Actually, i'll think about it." Most of the time I woulda been pissed at that, but I was happy as fuck. :D
Next day, we aren't going out. I'm not going to go deeper, just it didnt happen....
So then everything starts to fuckin flip.
Pookies bi-sexual brother, Josh, starts coming over everyday.
Wayneeshas sister Latoya-17 moves in for like 2 weeks.
A mexican family with 2 cute ass girls, Amber-15, Ashley(not the same one) 13 move in the
apartments.
A nigga named Elmo moves in the apartments.
And I got EVICTED!!

All that happened withing like 2 weeks. All of them affected something. I shall move on...

So Latoya moved in with Wayneesha first. I didn't have a problem. She was perfect for me at the time. She tried to get Ashley to get with me, and was like my lil playgirl at the same time, I really think she liked me.
Then Josh started coming over and since he can fight and is gay as FUCK all the girls try to get on his good side as to not get they ass beat. He led the "Cameron is ugly" trend. Cameron being me. -_- I never liked him to a big point but we didn't ever have real problems.
THEN I found out we had a month to move out, ripped me apart, i had grown with these people and they were just gunna be gone.
Elmo moved in and was real reclusive at the time...
Then the mexican bitches moved in. Christian fell in love with the older one, Amber, and there was CONSTANT tension between us for a while because of her. I didn't like her, I just wanted to tap, and she knew it, and he knew it.
So Pookie was goin out with the OTHER Ashley(not mine)
Christian was going out with Amber
My Ashley was going out with some nigga from school
Wayneesha was going out with Lorren

In other words, everyone was coupled except for me, which started problems....

One day I was over at Wayneeshas house and this was after school. We were listening to music and just chillin. She threw on Usher-Burn and told me to listen to the first verse. (abotu this time lorren and wayneesha were REALLY deep in love) and she told me that is how she felt about
Lorren at the time. So I was like "Damn, you know I have to tell him right?" so she understood. I asked her if she wanted to break-up with him and she said yes. So I went and got that nigga Lorren from school, told him about it, so he goes and breaks up with Wayneesha. BOOM. All hell breaks loose on me.
SHE denies all of it. Says I made it up. So there is a big ass meeting. I told my end of the story niggas was like...ok. Wayneesha told hers, convinced everyone that I was a jealous mother fucker that was pissed that I aint got a girlfriend and that I liked her. BULLSHIT. I started beef,
callin names, both of us puttin eachother on blast about everything. On my side I got Christian and 25% of Lorren. Niggas was there for me. Anyways, the next day her and her little clique roll up on me, all girls cept for the gay dude who kept his mouth shut cuz he don't want none. Niggas is harrasing me, I feel like my fuckin life is falling apart. So this one bitch comes up to me
chillin and tries drawing on my fuckin face witha permenant marker. Wasn't gunna happen, I told the bitch to back up, she didn't and got pushed the fuck on the floor. BOOM. Somehow this turns things around. I went home came back the next day cuz I aint lettin bitches punk me off MY block. First person i saw was Christian telling me that Wayneesha wants to drop it, i'm like
coo. But we was never the same.
So then I started gettin cool with the other Ashley and we was mad cool. I culdn't come over as much and therefore suffered losing closeness with a lot of people. Then Elmo started coming outside. FIRST experience I have with him is him going out with Ashley 2 seconds after they meet. Secondly, while I had beef with everyone I wrote a diss to em all. MOTHER FUCKERS
FOUND IT AND FLIPPED. Amber was pissed and tore it up and spit on it. Elmo somehow took this as "sonning" me. Never liked that nigga agian.
Blah, I couldn't go over for like a week and when I did, Elmo thought we was still coo and since noone was around I chilled with him. We went and picked up niggas frm school and some dumb shit happened and he was talking to Christian, MY NIGGA, about why he should beat my ass over some bitch. Christian is my nigga, so he played it off like "I don't fight over no bitch" but
that nigga Elmo done fucked up. We got back to the green apartments, I told niggas I was gunna beat his ass if he did some shit like that again. They told him I said it, he stepped up, and got KNOCKED THE FUCK OUT right in front of his girlfriend, Ashley, who I STILL love, she broke up with that nigga 10 minutes later, and asked me out the next day. :)
Things was goin my way once again, i had the girl I always wanted. But she has a problem with commitment and within a week we broke up cuz she made up soem dumbass excuse saying she still wanted to be friends and shit. So w/e, I was done with that for a cool minute. Christian got Mononucleosis and shit so he was housebound for 2 weeks, I started hangin with Amber and
Ashely and one day their mom left for like 4 hours so I was at home with them and I was OBVIOUSLY flirting with her. Whenever she would go into the bathroom to do her hair summore I would go in there and feel on her, or kiss on her neck, w/e it was, only her and I knew. The other Ashley started liking me or SOMETHING cuz she gave me like 3 lapdances and was crazy flirting so it was crazy that day.
Next day I wrote Amber a letter about what happened cuz I didn't want her to tell Christian so THAT nigga got better, found out about it, and we had beef. We got in a fight, which you can refer to the fight thread about, blah blah blah.
One day nobody was around the apts cept me and Ashley so we was chillin all day, at this point I thought I had no more feelings for her. But Jenny came out and when Ashley let for a second, I said out loud "I want to kiss her again." Jenny heard me told Ashley and the whole day was tension cuz I wanted to, she wanted to, but we couldn't bring ourselves to do it. So it got
reallllllllll late I was chillin with Jenny by her house and Ashley came back. She came to the table and I told her when Jenny left that she could ask me anything and I would tell her. She asked me if I loved her, asked how big my dick was, asked if I would want to have sex with her and if I really wanted to kiss her. SO I said yeah to all of them and told mer how big my dick was
and she kissed me like WOW crazy experience, i'm talking about that soap-opera shit.

There is much more but I feel it useless to continue if nobody is interested up to this point. If yall want me to finish, which could be another long one, holla. For now, deal without the exciting conclusions :evilgrin:

Mutha fucka if I do get really bored tonight I will read that novel you just wrote..

Then Josh started coming over and since he can fight and is gay as FUCK all the girls try to get
on his good side as to not get they ass beat. He led the "Cameron is ugly" trend. Cameron being
me. -_-
^^^LMFAO THATS FUNNY ASS SHIT

ANYWAYS I READ THE WHOLE THING IM REALLY BORED AND THAT WAS QUITE ENTERTAINING FIRST ASHLEY AINT THE GIRL FOR YOU SHE SEEMS SLUTISH AND JUST PLAIN DUMB I THINK YOUR INFATUATED WITH HER LOOKS WYNESSA WOULDVE BEEN A GOOD CHOICE FOR YOU I THINK SHE ONLY SAID SHE WANTED TO LEAVE HER MAN CUZ SHE WAS HOPING YOUD TRY TO GET WITH HER;)YOU AND CHRISTIAN SHOULD RESOLVE YOUR ISSUES BUT YOU IN THE WRONG SON YOU SHOULD APOLIGIZE ALSO BE THE BIGGER MAN HERE.YOUR GONNA END UP IN TOO MUCH BEEF SUN STOP WORRING SO MUCH ABOUT BITCHES BE PATIENT AND DONT FUCK WIT OTHER PEOPLES GIRLS THATS CORNY THERES 7 WOMAN FOR EVERY MAN HOW THE FUCK IS YOU SINGLE?!ANYWAYS JUST BE PATIENT AND THE RIGHT ONE WILL COME TO YOU;)

hmm ill peep it if i get bored....this basically your biography?

shyyyte...thats a whole lot of reading. pretty entertaining tho. i was mad bored. all i got to say is you should hit up those two sisters for a threesome. :thumbup:

Naw, all this was over the period of like 4 or 5 months. But it shows a lot about me...

I red da whole thing.

WTF...did u say u fuckin wit some1 whos 11.....i only jus got up..but mayne.......thts some fuckin autobiography shit right there.....dayum...

that was.........................beautiful I actually read it all
Saken wants more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:cool:

I read it all too....lol.

One of my close friends named his son Cameron Edwards.....that's pretty fucking wierd man -_-

i only read half of it so this soap-opera....is gonna have to be continued.......so far this shit sounds like a movie or somethin

Dear God you must have been bored. I read the first sentence, do I get a medal?

ahahhaahah....word is bond..

What a novel......
brain hurts....

I read the whole thing...What are yalls ages...Ofcourse I want more..lol

ill read it later

Yeah I was bored, plus I haven't been there for a long time, so it was real nice to reminisce(however you spell it) I guess i'll write part 2 tonight :)

It was actually a rather compelling story. I wish i had friends...

^ shit that was long, read the whole thing....awaiting part 2.

ha ha

This is dope that people are actually reading it and liking it. I was expecting a lot of

But now I feel special :D

Part 2 some time today/tonight

Parrrrrt two...

The night she kissed me I was happy as fuck. :)

But once again, she started going out with Gabriel. So I was feeling like there was nothing to be there for. But I did start getting closer to my niggas again. I went to Arizona with Christian and Lorren to see their aunt, which was fun, but they kept on talkin shit about me being in love with Ashley, which I found fucked up but I got over it.
Then Ashley broke up with Gabriel and I was ready to jump on that, word was she was gunna ask me out. But no, she decided to go out with some fuckin bitch from a school she doesn't even go to, and he lives relatively far away AND he has a rep for cheating on his girlfriends, I then considered her dumb in terms of relationships. She started letting everyone read all the fuckin letters I gave her, trying to "clown" on me for my feelings to her. Pure bullshit.
So after a little while longer, Amber and the other Ashley moved out, Latoya was gone and Josh was starting to come over less and less. Unfortuneatly so were Christian and Lorren. Elmo was falling out of star status. But the luster of the place as a whole was diminishing.
Wayneeshas OLDER sister, Raquel-19, started dating this 40 year old nigga, Charles, who had a son named Dominique. I was chillin with him a lot more, all the girls was on his DICK like whoooooa. He could never understand why I loved Ashley so much because he coulda had her so easy but never did. Anyways he started going out with Wayneesha ( for you slow people, if Raquel and Charles woulda gotten married, Wayneesha would be his fucking AUNT :shocked: ) so he was coming out less and less. I was only able to go over ohhhhh about once or twice a week, so things were going by fast as hell. Ashley was going out with this mexican coward named Ronald. Wayneesha was still going out with Dominique. Christian and Lorren RARELY were around. Elmo was inside a lot. The shit was dying. It wasn't the same without me.
I talked to Wayneesha sometimes and she would tell me how much she wished it could go back to the old days, when I was always around, when we could sit outside and talk instead of always having to go somewhere.
Longer story short...
As of the last time I have been there:
Wayneesha still is going out with Dominique, she says she loves him more than anyone she has ever loved, and doesn't really care about the thought of one day becoming his aunt.
Christian and Lorren are still around, stay inside mostly, he still skips around with his girlfriends and Lorren is going into a phase where he wants to be all popular and shit.
Stephany moved back to wherever she came from and isn't gunna be around.
Elmo ran away from home and nobody has heard from him.
And Ashley is still going out with a mexican banger who pressures her to have sex. She comes to me for advice every now and then but I don't hear from her much. She flirts with me a lot, but whenever her boyfriend is around she starts frontin.

Basically, for me, that place died when I left. There have been moments of its old-time glory but everyone has changed their outside appearance and inside feelings, wich is homo. I'm gunna try and go over tomorrow so if I do i'll update yall on whats up.

( orry if the second part wasn't as good but I kinda fell away from the place+it dying doesn't leave much to say :( )

It was a good follow-up, hopefully if part 3 occurs tomorrow it'll be better :thumbup:

cant wait to hear about tomoro if you go

that shit was long but it was pretty entertaining actually

she ripped it up and spit on it and thought u got sonned...she=dumb bitch

lol

how old r u homie?

damn man....... u couldnt make it rhyme or nothin????? i guess i'll start readin it now......

It would be even longer to make the story go how I wanted it. But word, i'm 16 :)

aight i read both of em...... i can relate to alot of ur shit girl wise...... word to Ashley takin ur letters and shit to show everyone juss to clown on u..... i had that shit happen, but yet again, i actually went with that girl for more than a week and shit.... lol, more like half a year.... but i can feel ya man.... Ashley seems like one fucked up girl, and kinda slutty to me....

if i have any rep on this site, im prolly gonna lose it right now, lol, but ur story with Ashley #1 really reminds me of that Bow wow song(*rep gone*) "My Baby"...... im guessin uve prolly heard it from a while back, but if u havent, that shit would prolly relate to u.....

man, if anyone cared about my life i would do this.... and i like the whole thing about dudes "not comin out" and shit.... i dont live in the hood..... so wats the thing about not comin outa the house... esp. wen u juss move it.... is it juss bein intimidated and shit???? w/e..... nice story man, too bad it doesnt end.

I made that suggestion once but everyone tried to come up with excuses of why it's not by pointing out the tinyest differences, so I gave up.

And about Ashley being a slut ( yes I do still love her :) ) it doesn't seem like shes a slut, she is just really unsure about what she wants, I know thats probably not how she came off but I have known her for a long time.

:bored:........

dude seriously...... from wat u sed, that song is like mirror image....... but yea, i can see how she could not be a slut since ur tryna sum up half a year in like a few pages of writin, and its not even all about her...... juss stay up man...... shes not that girl in ur sig, is she????

Aiight word. Pretty much what I told you on AIM is how I think about this. Ashley is only in it because she wants to look cool infront of people. Its like gold diggers when you get older, cept at the moment these girls are younger and are only looking to get with whos gonna make them look cooler infront of people.

Basically you gotta work out where you stand. Your true friends and your enemies are the only people whos important. Everyone else is like an extra in a movie or a game that we call life. To be compleatly honest with you, I dont think you should waste too much time on ashley. Tap her as often as you can get away with, but think of it as sex without the connection. Cause shes only bound to break up with you as soon as the next guy thats going places comes in.

Remember that life is just one big performance though.. How far you get in it all comes back to your motivation to learn and look at things from a bigger picture perspective.

Remember that.

and damn man..... i look at my post times... i started readin at 10 35..... and finished at 11 06..... Damn that shit was long.....

Sorry ='(

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i read about half of it... ill read it again when i get bored

Oh and the girl in my sig isn't Ashley, but Ashley does pretty much look like her

^ manny shits on Ashley....

Looks....no, they are damn near eachother

Manny acts just like Ashley yo, maybe thats why I like her so much :(

read it, ill post up some of my life shit toommorw and mine will br good two, thats cool soc hoe old is that girl in the sig?