Hells Fire |
05-02-05 09:01 PM |
well i spent some time in the icu rooms with my moms almost dieing and some of it is stupid shit some guy never drives a snowmobile and goes on a fast one without a helmet...brains out his ear and shit....some kids are mis lead and need help like a kid who tried to commit suicide and shot himself in pancreas....life is too hard for some kats like my friend spencer rock kid had emotional problems went on a drug and wasnt monitored for after effects and he hung himself...death comes to the innocent allot tho i seen cancer hit my lil cousin but shes been fighting back...i seen lupus attack the brain 3 times and my mom fight back...i dunno why good people get hurt cuz my mom never hate on any one and my grandma like church goer every day...people dont watch their health cuz my grandma needs heart sergery and she smoked...people take alot of risks like the snow mobile guy...i know a person in icu who died because her kidneys failed and no one knew until it was dead with gang green and she still livin while she had dead organs...lot of hood shit is beef and shit talk reppin and shit...ya dont want violence on your self but ya willing to put it on others...i stood by my moms bed cryin my eyes out because i remember having visions of her dying when i was little and i said i always protect her...i stood by a oxygen screen, feeding tube, crying family, and a mom that didnt know what was happening...i stood through a pastor and phone call/ meeting with my dad and family that said she die in a month...but if she went to mayo she may have a chance...we werent gonna tell her she was gonna die then we told her and she chose mayo...i cried till eyes blood shot and dry...i looked back at all my circumstances wondering why....10% of cases hit the brain why her...i found hope and faith seen my mom in mayo clinic and she got better but i thought i lost my world...people die because we dont live forever...we are not nice to one another...and sometimes shit happens and you gotta be ready...my mom is in a nursing home going threw therapy to come home... she can talk, move one arm, wonders what im doin when im not with her and my cats at home cry awaitin her arrival but ya need faith...hope...trust...not biblical necesary but ya need those in ya self or what ya believe in to make it through every day...but for some reason do ya notice like lewis black said, "pricks live forever". my great grandpa still alive and he just quit drinking and driving home drunk every day...87...makes ya wonder...
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