This GOTTA Be...
 

..The WORST Thing in the world, man...

yesterday i went too an old freinds funeral, an it was my first ever funeral, an damn......without a doubt, it is the worst thing that ever happend ta me, i hate funerals....an the songs they play in respect too who passed away, an when they carryin the uhmm....coffin, its ust awful, i didnt know him too well, we was at school together for awhile, an i'#d be like ''whassup'' if i saw him, but we aint han tiogether n shit....altho the first ever time i blazed a reefer at school, he was with me........but yeah, funerals are awful, an for those who aint never attended one, i wish i was you!!!!

i haven't attended a funeral as of yet.

^^^i have i've attended about six i think it is...............

Yeah I'm lucky not to have attended a funeral.

Keep ya hed up mayne

i know they must be traumatising, so even if i was invited, i still don't think i'd want to go..

^I'd wanna go if it was someone I loved or respected to say good bye and pay respects.

i didnt wanna neither.....i barely knew the kid.

i still wouldn't want to go if i loved them. it would be too painful.

But wouldn't you feel asthough you hadn't seen them off to their fate properly.

well, yeah. but i'd be so devastated that i'd just want to forget about them..

I know what ya mean but it would be hard forgetting someones death it's something that stays with you unless you see death every day. You gotta learn to accept there end.

i'm just saying because they are out of my life, i wouldn't want to keep thinking of them. because it would just get me deppressed.

Yeh life and death are harsh. I've almost died before it really changed the way I thought.

well you know what happened to my friend, i didnt go to her funeral which was yesterday, it would brought sadness again, i jus wanna remember the good times. get me.

see. thats what i've basically been saying.

werd............ funerals are hell mayne.. i cry at em every single one i attended..

how many have you been to murdz?

Since my birth, 8 family members have died, 4 in the last 2 years..

I've been to lots of funerals.. Tephlon is right, everything is just shitty.. Everybody around you is crying and just so bummed, and you can just feel the mood is depressing..

I have also been to about another 4 funerals for close family friends, or friends family members..

So... I've been to 12 funerals that I can remember..

yeah, as i said before. funerals seem to traumatising.

Seeing a dead body is weird when it is all dressed up. It doesn't look real, like something you see in a show.

nothing worse then standing next to a good friend, your age, lying in a box.

the feeeling is horrible.

^ word, i feel you. i really wouldn't want to see a loved one like that.

Yeah so funerals help people mourn and say goodbye right..

And I mean, I get sad when people die cause it aint cool..
But I never really got mourning or grieving..

When someone dies, they die..
Their either looking over you in w/e place their at..
Or their in a void of nothingness..
....Dont bother to decide on that one..

Life does carry on as usual though..
Fuck prolonging death shit..

When I walk out of funeral doors, I'm usually thinking about going and getting KFC for lunch..
Not mourning..

it sucks goin to your father's funeral....yea that sucked...thank god i hardly remember it....

go to your fathers mothers bestfriends funeral then complain otherwise shut the fuck up..........

It's horrifying if it was a relative or friend, but the wake is worse.

i attended many............. imagine the one most important person to you had died. that's the worst and not being able to cry at the funeral and be in denial about it all. i wanted to sing at the funeral and they were calling people to come up, but i said naw because my grandma was in tears and needed someone nearby her. Funerals are where people learn to accept the fact that someone involved in their life in someway has died. It will never be a happy moment for anyone.

This one girl at my old middle school had died. She had a anuerism (however you spell it), her brain was bleeding from the inside out. She bumped into me one day (she was a real skinny, short white girl). And she was like i'm sooo sorry, i was like naw it's cool you know. Then she hurried along to class. That was the last time i came in contact with her at school. She told her closest friends that she had demons following her everywhere she went. And my friend, this white girl, Tiffany tried to beat her up a while ago and i was telling her to leave that lil girl alone. She seem like she had troubles and what not. One day, Kristie was in one of her classes and she asked to go to the bathroom, she told her teacher she needed to go to the bathroom. She went to the bathroom not too far from my class on the opposite end of the hallway and her head was bleeding and someone from my class found her lying on the floor in her own blood. They had a helicopter come rush her to a hospital. I'll never forget that day. Tiffany came into my class and she was like i need to talk to you at this moment everyone didn't know what happened at the time. I just walked out while my teacher was talking and she was like remember that little short girl i wanted to beat up, i was like Kristie? she was like yeah.. i was like please tell me you didn't beat the shit outta her. She was like naw, she got rushed to the hospital and Tiffany was studdering and couldn't talk right.. her eyes just got watery and i told her to sit down and tell me what happened. Tiff's like i can't naw i can't believe it, i feel guilty. Next thing i know they said it on the intercom, the principal said what happened.

The day of her funeral, i refused to go because Kristie was an abused child by her parents. And i couldn't bare to sit in a funeral with somebody that call themselves a parent and beat the shit outta their daughter which very well could have contributed to her death. I heard the funeral turned real ugly. Everyone started blaming the mom and dad. They said the parents had no remorse for her. I was like glad i didn't come because i woulda gotten kicked out anyways for speaking my mind. but all in all, i hope Kristie rest in peace and the way i look at it is that she no longer has demons following her.