Why should you feel bad?
 

Ever think about it? Why should you feel bad? If you did something to 100% of your ability, didn't half ass it and didn't try to get one over on anybody and I man rally feel good about the job you did, why should you feel bad about anything at all regardless of what others think? If someone dosen't feel you're good enough for them (THEIR opinion of how YOU should feel), why should you feel bad or ashamed? You shouldn't! Don't let your approval of your self (internal) rely on the approval of others (external). Mostly because someone else subconciously trying to fill the hole that's their self esteem will only feel increased self worth by trying making you feel like lesser than you are. You're bombarded with negativity all day and all night long in your food, in your sight, in your sounds, and even in your dreams and deep within your mind. TV and music all around us push images and sounds and depictions of life styles deep within the very grain of your subconcious to make us feel like what we presently are is nothing and worthless and we're imperfect and in need of something without to fulfill within. Hair and make-up commercials know how to make a woman feel hideous. They exhagerate someone's insecurity (which comes from a fear of loss other's approval) like "do you see wrinkles, blemishes, or smile lines?" and then bust out a "zoom in" to make it look magnified and REALLY lay it on. They'll exploit it and make a woman feel like her body is breaking down and she'll look like a complete freak soon - "but wait! Your salvation from certain doom comes in a bottle of insert your chemical here"! Even breakfast cereals are in on it by trying to make it look like you'll fall to the wayside and won't be a champion if you're not cramming down their cereal. We're soaked in negativity from others. The sewage even washes up on the shores of our langage - you're my dog. My boy. My nigga. My son. - all terms that slave masters to reffer to slaves, to program a man to subconciously feel worthless. All those terms adress someone or something who answers to another.

Fuck that.

Don't let anybody script out for you how you should feel about your self, your life, your accomplishments, your goals, your body, or your mind because you're ALWAYS unstopable till you convince your self you're not. Opportunities arise and things alighn to go your way when you're in gear, focused, and doing what you really feel good about doing.

You.



One.

^^Absolutely...I made a thread similar to this last week in "Cerebral Approach." I think as you age, you simply stop letting certain things get to you. I've learned that most of what people say comes from their experiences. It has NOTHING, NOTHING to do with me at all. So, when someone says, "Q, you're an idiot," it really has nothing to do with me. On the other hand, when someone says, "Q, you're wonderful," it also really has nothing to do with me, but them. I'm learning more and more to be comfortable in my own skin. And, it's a great thing.

Question, where is all this consciousness coming from all of a sudden Apexx?

damn, apexx, that's some real shit man..... I agree

Word to that...=1=

Q, this "conciousness" comes from finding true self worth and living what real happiness is. Hapiness isn't someone else feeling good because you did something. It's YOU feeling good because you did it. I don't call it conciousness or that I "found" religion or anything like that. To me, it's just "peace" - and you make it, not find it. It's impossible to "find" something that you create. You can only "find" something that already exists. What's better than world peace? As far as I can see, it's having peace with the world.

If you're doing something for the sole purpose of trying to look better or higher or trying to compare your self to someone else, then you're doing it for the WAY wrong reasons. They're them. You're you. You're the ONLY you, so how are you better or worse than anyone at being yourself? Being what you are brings peace. Doing what you love brings true happiness, and that's something we all owe our selves.

I agree. I started having this epiphany not long ago. And, I find that it's improved my relations with other people and even myself.


This would make for a good round table discussion.

werd Apexx. baisically, fuck wut anybody else thinks, thas how i am, i do me n not try n b wut utha ppl want me 2 b. n im 1 of tha most popular ppl round here, n tha mafuckaz who try n frunt like theyre sumthin they aint, most ppl dont like them, naw mean? werd

Kolby, what I'm saying is less along the lines of "fuck what everybody thinks" and more along the lines of "I understand the reason that people feel the need to act like they do, which causes them to think what they think and say what they say. But regardless of that, I feel great" and it's the truth. It dosen't even register in my head to react to someone's negativity. It has no value to me and always equals zero. I'm emotionally indifferent to it, but highly reactive to the positive and can only see the positive since that's the only thing with a real world value and substance when you really look at it. I can only see progress in an action, because there is no such thing as "failure". Everything you do, you learn from. That's progress. This means that no matter what you do, it's impossible to fail because you're always making progress.

Couldnt of said it better myself..

But I get the feeling there was an underlying motive of self justification behind making this thread...

You been copping hate from certain cats latly or something?

Good thread.

I agree with it...as long as you make yourself happy, everybody else can go fuck themselves.

I jus do what I do..... to quote jigga on a Mariah carey colab (lmao) "Gotta let it do what it do baaaby". word.

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^ that song is fucking ill

When i jack someone Ipod or smash a bottle over some kids head i dont feel sorry or bad.

fuck that, i'ma animal.

Word man... thats some good shit.

Nah, not at all. Quite the opposite. I've never felt this happy in my life and it radiates everywhere.



I never knew that in a world of humans, it was good to be an animal, but Ignorance is bliss. So smile! :D

The chain of questions starts with "why do you want to take someones iPod?"

Money.

Ipods sell for alot, everyone wants them.

And why do you want the money?

(I like where this chain ends. You will too.)

yo apexx, there was some shit I wanted to talk to you about...

Did you get a new aim or something cos you're not online... ?

I think the chain ends with him stating money can buy happiness. Maybe that's just what I'm forecasting though.

Still my traditional deepblue963 on AIM, MSN etc.



haha, well, hard to say for sure since he's not here to answer for himself.

Yeah, but why else would you want money? He'd say "I'd want money so I can buy stuff for myself." Then, you'd say, "Why'd you want to do that?" And he'd respond saying (probably with a different word choice) that money buys happiness. I can just see that coming from a mile (maybe even two miles) away. Word. WORD.

Hmmm. That's one possibility. Or it could go a completely different way, but of course, discussing the hain is going to make ANYONE want to try to outsmart their own self (since that's who the questions answer to), which is impossible. I'd like to give Serbness the opportunity to answer for himself.

apexx wows me yo, like its a whole different dude or sumthin, what did u do on ur rv break? somthin huge musta happend

For shit that i can buy, to make me look good so i can get some sex.

Yup. Something huge did happen. A few something huges.


To buy clothes to appease a materalistic woman? That's one step away from a gold digger, and we all know gold diggers are worthless - so why WILLINGLY try to catch one?

I'm sure there's way better shit you'd rather have that makes you feel good, intead of trying to get someone else to tell you to feel good because they like you.

Yo i aint in no way tryna sound negative....but have you been on shrooms....

when i took shrooms i was thinking like this too and about a whole lot of shit and everything logicaly made sense and wehn i wasnt scared i was at peace....wierd how shrooms work


but yup.... if not shrooms then what made you make this thread,,,,you said something huge but not religeon.......maybe a KId on the way? a new girlfriend and your finally expierncing real love? i have no idea..but i know theres somehting...

If that was paragraphed a little. I'd probly read it.

lol, no, definitely no shrooms. I just finally see the big picture. I'm not on anything with any religion, no kids (thought I now feel like one again), no new lover (thougt I've gotten more affections and company from females now than I've ever gotten). I just have better vision. But did you notice how we're automatically programmed to expect something outside of makes us happy?


Shrooms = from the outside. That'd be believable.
Kid = from the outside. Believable.
Lover's affection = from the outside. Believable.

Enlightenment = from the Inside. That's unbelievable?

Just the world we live in.

And the reason that I made this thread is because hopefully it'll show someone a step on a path to making their own self truely happy and actually enjoying their life, instead of being miserable and slaving their years away to please someone else.

i bieleve apexx is wise for his age....-1

i aint tryna diss you or anything... but you sound like a guy who is all cought up in a colt or something....no offense.....

but whats hella wierd is when i read it i can hella hear the bliss your feeling and shit....like your hella calm and shit all the time.... wierd shit

No offense taken champ, you're just reaching for understanding. That's how the mind makes sense of things - but that's good, because at least you're making sense of things!

And I really do feel happy. I even feel good just knowing that I have a rightfully deserved smile on my face and that people can feel the glow of happiness exuding from within which makes them feel happier. Which makes me feel happier! lol.

It's a strange experience to feel what this is like. Even your voice sounds different when you're at peace, so much thicker and fuller and breathy. So much more ressonant. Slower. At rest. And people can feel it. Good ideas come to you immediately and without you conciously thinking about it. The amount of time between your first step to something, and the result of that step feels like it was done and there for you to take when ever you were ready for it. Everything just flows, without any concious thought or effort.

Strange at first, but I love it, and it seems so un-natural to do something now without it. It's like the ultimate swiss army knife.