it's been a year since the tragedy, i'm still stressing
can't relinquish the thought of it out do to self aggression
contimplated suicide time and time over for obvious reasons
memories flashback do to the change of the seasons
i still blame myself, what could i have done different
stayed with her instead of trying to find another woman
i think back and still can't figure it out no matter what
remember shaking with anger as my eyes slowly shut
why did this happen? i don't believe it she can't be gone
how could i let this happen, i promised her, where did i go wrong
we had almost everything, but it was taken so sudden
three years on and off, such love, i was gonna be her husband
from freshman, to sophmore, and suddenly ended as juniors
the hole thing called of do to dis-trust and childish rumors
how could i be so dumb and listen, why'd i let her get away
i promised to protect her, i failed so she's no longer here today
love always exited my lips when i spoke to her but did i mean it?
confused, i was young and stupid so i myself didn't believe it
why'd i let her go? i was always dipping in out of the relationship
to afriad to be a man, stand up and start to face the shit
she's gone it's to late i can't change the fact of that
i'm still dwelling on the past even though i can't go back....


Dedicated to Kimberly L. Holton
Nov.4,1986 - Sept.30,2003




this is my first open mic, personally i think i could have done better but i'm stressing, hoping to do better on part 2, give some feedback please