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In Memory of Darryl A. Faison... I Love You, Pops!

I know I shoulda asked if everything was ok when last we spoke...
But I took it as a normal phone conversation... complete with jokes
The tone of your voice should have triggered something inside of me...
Actually, it did... instincts were pushed aside in hopes that you'd confide in me
I remember you asking over and over again if i was being sent overseas to fight
I laughed it off...told you no... knowing all the while that I just might
You made me promise to let you know if anything changed between then and the time you were to visit
It was at that moment I knew that i should have had the guts to ask you, "Dad, what is it?"
Instead I made the promise... not realising that i'd never be able to hold true to my word
Before I hang up you told me you loved me...and for some reason it was the most chilling thing I'd heard
I surpressed all feelings about the conversation and convinced myself i was over-reacting
I thought to myself, "He'd let me know if something serious was happening."
Some weeks went by and I decided to call to see how you and the rest of the family were doing
You had to take a raincheck on visiting me cuz you all were in the process of moving
I knew when I asked about you something was wrong; like they were trying to hide something from me
They told me you were in the hospital again and things weren't looking good; in fact, they were quite ugly
I was hoping they'd keep me posted on your condition, but they didn't;two days had already passed on
I called home for an update only to find out that those 2 days weren't the only things that had gone...
My dad had died... the one who molded me and distilled in me what it is to be part of a family
Gone is the one being who loved me unconditionally, and always seemed to bring out the man in me
Also gone is the chance to see the look in his eyes the first time he'd get to meet his granddaughter
I sit and think about all the kool things he could have shown her and the lessons he could have taught her
The same lessons he taught his own children... family first, education, never take life for a joke
But i'd happily trade all those lessons... just to have that day back... when last we spoke.

Dad, I'll always remember the strong person you were and all that you tried to teach me. I miss you a lot and I'll see you again one day. Until then, you keep watching out for your family down here. I know you're watching over me and that you are part of the reason that I'm still alive and well in Iraq. I thank you for all you've done and sacrificed for us. Love always, your first born son.
P.S. I'm coming to visit you as soon as I can. You'll always be loved.

originally posted in poetic scriptures... looking for feedback