Topic-Drunk By Myself

Im drunk by myself lookin back at my life
complications in health as i ponder this knife
suicidal theorys bare flesh an bone laserastions
hospitilized thoughts grown weary with mal patients
forsaken views on lifes struggles an questions
i pray to the heavens but get no answers just suggestions
my mind hences the insane bottle of jack delays the pain
my brain has my mindset framed before the fetus was trained
signals of depression un wravelen like the devil un dressin
my lifes like one big unforgetable lesson
kilos a sess a mill lyrics manafested from the ghettos conquest
images vanishing my lifetime flashing before my death
the alcohol provides a state of mind far from grasp
where i can freelance un spoken signs an think about paps
i walk alone on the earth to roam frequently stressin
but gods sincere to his word..cause he keeps me guessin
sometimes i feel extorted mind altering drugs help to cope
people dont wanna help..expressions are shrugs tighten the rope
i wanna choke let me drift with silence an authentic thinkin
cause...shit...aint...been....the...same...since.. .i..stopped...drinkin