Confusion
 

My world is spinning in circles but
I’m seeking help from above, I am
changing and I hurt my only love.
To excuse is a lie and to wave it
around I’d rather die, but in the
end I know it will make us stronger
knowing that we will have each other
even longer.
My life is changing and I wonder
things, I seek answers yet come up
with sand and sad endings.
I’m in the middle of 4 roads, each
with different paths, I have my mate
beside me all the way, with God
ahead of the pack.
But once I make this decision, I’m
scared there will be no turning back.
Emotions are transparent, but my mind
constantly alluded and coherent.
Excuse me if I love you, I’m sorry if I’ve
wronged you, but do what you must do,
because I haven’t got a clue.
I’m as scared as you are right now, not
because of temptation because of why and
how.
Actually finding an answer for my life yet finding you
here, wondering if you’ll hold me back, but
I can’t leave you for I fear, what might happen
what might become, I’m not as strong as I once
was.
Please don’t think that you are something I regret
you just caught me at an awkard moment of my life
and that’s it.
The only thing I regret is hurting you so bad, making
you feel scared, neglecting you and your dad.
I love everything about you, your quirks and faults.
Your strengths and talents and whatever else befalls.
I know this is not a good apology, but I’m not use
at giving these, sorry is a major word of my vocabulary
because when opposites attract minds are going to attack.