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*Note: This is a true story about a girl that i knew, she did this to her self and she died....*
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She took 5 pills
but the thrills
didnt come fast enough
so she took a four more
but the high didnt come
so she took her 11
and her world felt like it was spinning
but she wanted more than that
she wanted to feel like she could fly
but she didnt want to die
she didnt think twice
before she took the 16
she took the whole package of cordicidin
thinking she could handle better than her friend
who died a year ago from the same thing
she walked in the school building
hoping that no one would notice
she went to first period
but no one had realized
the high was strong enough
but second period she could barely walk
her mind wondered every where else
but on her homework
soon after the bell rang
but she bent over and barfed all over the floor
she couldnt stand this high anymore
her friend came to her side
and helped her out of the classroom
the ambulance called and she was rushed away
as her friends all watched
they said good bye
hoping this wouldnt be the end

at the hospital
they put a tube up her nose
and shoved it down her throat
they put coal in her stomache
to absorbe up the poison
she stayed the night
but she wasnt even scared
she was too high to know what was going on
her family was by her side
but she knew they knew didnt care
they cared more about how much it would cost
the next day she woke up
she found out she was being sent to a mental hospital
they all had called it a suicide attempt
but she was glads she'd be leaving
she hated her family but mostly her mother
she loved her beer more than she did her daughter
"fuck you mom" was the last thing she said
before she left the hospital
she never called anyone the whole time she was there
and when someone called her
shed answer the phone
and quickly say good bye then hang up the phone
she just wanted to be alone
she wanted the world to forget
she means nothing to herself
so why does she mean something to these strangers?
they probably hate her
cause they say what they do, is just their job

15 1/2 days later her doctor told her
shed being going home
but she wanted to go anywhere but home
she had court comming up soon
so she knew shed be back at the hospital soon
she doesnt give a shit about life
she hates her life now
shes fucked up too much yet thats nothing new
so she sits and waits
to here the punishment from the judge
but it never came
cause they made another court date
so she could get an attorney she never wanted
but her parents made her get one
so shed have to stay at home with family
that she had so much hate for
but she knew that this would end soon
she made the plan
this time she would do it right
in the middle of the cold sept night
shell go to the backyard and hang the rope
hang the rope up high
and hang herself to finally die