A standard struggle.
 

man what will it take for me 2 understand that life is important,
i make money lose money easy,people say im funny but all of it is forgeulant.
Under the skin is a tired young man, jus trying to lead that normal life,
jus be like everyone else not to have deep feeling of gashes of deaths knife.
y is my ex so mad at me? what is expected of me always under lock + key?
Drink daily to cover up my reality of the excuse of coming insanity,
Prisoner in my own mind, gave everything i had i say this underlined,
jus for a pillow of support or so i thought, the results show i was undermined.
My little son born in under 20 days, to most shit would amaze,
hate loud gays, an i think im the 1 in the middle of hard mind faze!
I only see problems,shit never seems to end, time + time again,
5 years ago stood taller then ''big ben'', even then i could'nt change this life i must mend.
Not for me but for my son as he will always be made number 1,
so now i take this val not to keep running+ not stop until my job is done.
Where will i find this strength? the drink must be further then arms length,
to stand a chance to advance of being ready for feburary 10th.
so not long now, sends a chilling shiver all over my body,
I must be focussed but cant help wondering how much easier if i scooped that lottery.
Well it a dream and nothing else is what i was tought,fuck the lack of support,
coz if i was ever sure about a bet, i bet that this child will feel like its my own life re-bought.