*~John Doe~* a.k.a "My Father" (The Letter)
 

John Doe's words were spoken,---
at a young age I never knew--
covering lies with empty promises---
which left me emotionless & confused---
had a mommy and a daddy combined, in one person
but when the two were together it resulted in
physical cursing---
I could'nt cope with the thought of being the one tarnished
reluctant to the fact that never was I, open-hearted---
But soon I reached a older age
where I could really understand, that it
took more than a dick and a sperm-filled hand---
empty sacks of paraphenalia removed times from
sudden beatings, why did your anguish strict rage result in my soul bleeding----

Apologizing constantly I flinched
with distant hugs---
just prayed that you wouldn't kill me
all I wanted was your love----
I cried when you slammed the door saying don't come
back, could'nt even look
me in my eyes without a panic attack---
all I wanted was a daddy and I begged for you to stay
leaving clues of no interest I discover till this
day---
drowning in my own guilt a battered and bruised soul
no control in my life still looking for
that console----

Toxic tidal waves of stress spawning into my scene
leaving me young and wise in
a state thats only serene---
still there's tomorrow, where fathers and children
glisten, all I wanted was a figure
that's manly and who would listen---
but for you theres no respect, just memories of cheap thrills
conflicting my decision, in a life of assorted pills---
to you I gave my heart, and you gave me a closed
fist, throwing my love away like paper in the deepest
hole of abyss---
you murdered me emotionally and strangled my realest
change, now I'm prone to the pain, sort of numb like novacain---


But see my mind feels naked still not knowing why
it's me your first born pride you
were intrigued to deprive----
a mailbox with no mail with emptiness that
remains a human really without a being
so it's me that you slained----
hmm my first tragedy which I united with death
but for you I refuse to take BaKardii's
last breath----
a constant search for the answers, for
your love I wont recapture, I was just a conquest
with many saying "why her"-----
respectively you've made me stronger
but theres no thank you's in crevices
it can't and wont find my lips my hate has worsened
since----
so this is my letter to you dad I'm fleeting
and still I stand, it takes a boy to be a daddy
and a father to be a man.... I Hate You

uh I'mma up this atad I put alot of heart into this if you don't feel it fine...if you do thats fine too I just want some feed back
*~Holler~*

sleep huh??......well ^^^^^^^^

shit yo that was ill,deepness,good topic to write on,shit like that been overlooked for money topics now,shits sad,bout time people started writng shit about shit that noone wants to admit happens,shit gets in your face mad nicely...props...peep my shit on open mic sometime,lookin for feedback on that....

so this is my letter to you dad I'm fleeting
and still I stand, it takes a boy to be a daddy
and a father to be a man.... I Hate You

excellent ending,liked it.

thnx uppin :)

sleep huh?? well wake up
^&^&^^^^^

^^^^^^
dayum ya'll sleepin like this take the nyquil bottle outta ya mouth
it'll be fine...trust me!!!!
Holler
:)

.Damn Mami.
 

Damn girl... you know what I think. This shit was ill, you a deep honey, I like that. Keep doin' what you doin' ma. Get at me.

thnx;)
can I get sum more feedback pleeze

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could'nt cope with the thought of being the one tarnished
reluctant to the fact that never was I, open-hearted---

i loved this ryhme check out fat hoe, aka comedy track

or militant mind
or suicide letter

damn, people be sleeping, thass wacc...

Bakardii, as always babe you drop a dope piece, this has hot imagery, clever play n is just generally a well-written scripture..

keep droppin hoit shit, n i hope to see ya reppin ~*~Pure~*~ very shortly..!!

take care babe

peace n god bless

thanx and yes I will be reppin ya very very soon...just some shyt i gottado solso for the moment ya digg
anyway keep bringin the werds peezy'
holler atcha 1 and only

WoW, this was...well "bad". Not the song! God no! The song was great, just everything you talk about is so sad, and bad...:(
This was really good girl, really raw deep emotion...Wow,

Keep Up The Good Work..and um...fuck him!