~!Tell me!~(my first RB poem)
 

this is my first RB poem Enjoy
Isn't it funny that after you hit a certain level of shittyness your body goes numb?
Hell I even go skitzo and yell at myself to have some fun
You got him and I was crazy about him forever so tell me why am I not crying?
I just found out that one of my life long friends has cancer..but I'm happy, even tho she is dying
My boyfriend just slept with my nemesis and told all of his friends about it..but Im not complaining
I probably would be at the end right now...but hey I'm not complaing

Should I feel bad? Should I be mad? Should I deserve the shit I take from my dad?
Tell me why am I sitting her, laughing my head off when everything in the world is going wrong
I was listening to the radio the other day...they were playing our song
I should have wept till my eyes had no more fluid in them
But for some reason, I almost went off the road..the terrible, corrupted mind of K.E.M
I should have died the other day...my friends all were counting on it happening
So when I stepped into skool and saw all their suprised looks, I ending up laughing
It's funny, really it is, how you can trust a person for thirteen years of your life and then have them betray you
Im not complaing, that's not part of me...but what the hell am I suppose to do

When someone dies..I laugh till I cry and my ribs hurt
When I finally get the man...the other one starts to flirt
When my heart is broken..I just shrug my shoulders and dont think twice
And when your treating me like shit..I jus smile and act one hundred percent nice

It should of hurt, when the bullet hit my skin
It should have hurt when I say you kissing with him
the last image I need in my mind is that one...so you know its always gonna stick
I amp myself up so when you tell me you love me and I get all happy I prepare myself for you acting like a prick
When you told me you were leaving me, did I go and shoot out my brains?
No, I stuck it deep down inside me...even tho its making me insane
I got shot at the other day...got hit right in the chest
I was on the ground, blood was everywhere and all I could do was laugh..I was impressed
I had just been shot down by a friend...he managed to hit me..must have been one of the best
Well. he kinda stood there...looking really confused
I got up, concieled the wound...still laughin..I was quite amused
I kept thinking to myself..I will play goodie two shoes and one day they will all loose

But that's not reality...and so when I get pain I throw out another part of feeling in my body
After all...I dont do well with hurting...but your the expert, so you tell me
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