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a young man stares off into the distance, one solitary tear rolls down his face as he veiws the horison with the sun slowly setting off in the distance and vivid flashbacks and thoughts runs through his head

The sun is vanishing without a trace in the world
its leaving me alone and in the dark just like ma baby gurl
it will leave me cold and uncomfortable just like ive felt for days
but i vow to never end this way...........my life has got to change
I knew that it would never last............perfection never does
But when you fall in so deep like that, you cant protect yourself from love
I wrote her a letter once to tell her just how i really felt
that everytime i see her fear would vanish and my heart would melt
but i never got a reply and the anticipation hurt like hell
but i still sat there and waiting thinking *time will only tell*
I called her cell a few times only to hear the dialing tone
and then one night i called her to find out shed changed her fone
Finally I plucked the courage to go round to her house with flowers
when she seen me she locked the door never answered..A real Downer
then finally I got a fonecall one blisfull starry night
only to find out something drastic which really gave me such a fright
she stuttered for a while before getting together in the end
*I think I might be pregnent* was all I could comprehend
My gut strated doing somersaults as i knew this was a hope
A chance to be redeemed.so i hung tigtly on..didnt let go
I said to her to calm down and take things one step at a time
and she then began to tell me that she knew that it was mine
My heart beat even faster as i knew i was well in
for a chance to be back with her and let our life finally begin
so I told her i would do the right thing and marry her next year
but then her voice began to quiver and i could hear her fight back tears
There will be no wedding babes...there will be no child either
my father says ive to abort it and quite frankly im agreeing
at this my heart complely stopped and my stomache hit the ground
i heard her heart beat down the foneline but i darenot make a sound
my mouth was too dry to speak instead i just made a noise
i knew that what lay inside her was my little girl or boy
at the end i jsut managed to muster the words please for gods sake dont
but she never heard those words...on the other end was the dialers tone
shed hung up on me and id hung on to my only chance
and now i was alone again as i stood there in a trance
That night i was on a mission i was going to change her mind
and i knew that it would work out for me.everything would be fine
so i tracked her down and begged her not to terminate the child
but she just smiled a little and closed the door tears rolling out her eyes
i then clicked to why wed split up shed got pregnant and it scared her
and i thought to myself if that was the only reason we could get back on track together
Then i finally won her back and everything was great
she was even going to try and keep the baby
As we lay together one night starting up at our ceiling smiling
I heard the baby kick inside her...and almost felt my heart smiling
As I fell asleep i knew that this would make me a changed man
I and thought to myself that i was going to do anything i can
to make this work to make them happy to suceed in life
so the next month after our boy was born.I made that girl my wife
its amazing how illness can take ahold of something quickly
especially if that person in question is riddeled with HIV
I did not kno that my wife was sleeping with another guy
turns out she was with him and she was pregnant at the time
and both my wife and baby boy were doomed to die
unfaithful ness has brought me here to this very spot
nothing to life for in my life anymore.... i might as well jsut drop