RapVerse.com Community - Currupted Visions: Hurtful Memories..(A past i want but hate)

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its a memory i miss but hate
something i brought 2 this and hate 2 debate
she broke me,but i miss her very essence
all i want 4 x-mas is her very presence

dont ever thing i forgot u,dont blame urself problems occured not-u
i miss u, wish u was hear,near u made my ways,but not 2 hear u got make shakin in fear
old shit in the past,this year movin 2 slow,not close 2 fast
it hurts me 2 write bout u,cuz im scared wat 2 think of wat 2 do
even though u broke-me,the way hands of death glad 2 choke-me
its been over a year and i cant wait,wat will i do i cant speak at a speechless state
wat if u chang'd better then ever,sever my heart, but u where hurt 2 wit pain 2 remember
im ready 2 4get past years,how can i liv wit mself the way i pass'd ur tears
i blame myself 4 lettin u go,i didnt try hard enough still dont know wat 2 do tho
the years u have on me R a thing,u dont even know wat 2 my life u can bring
i was happy and never thought 2 be-sad,but wat u did i dont know if we can have wat we-had
im want things 2 be similar 2 then,here and thoze friends how fimiliar bad was 2 them
i could barely sleep wit tears 2 drown me,if she still luvs her heart would have found-me
shes gone true and i find myself losing,chosing things i wish i'd be refusing
ill never do drugs and take her path,she tried 2 convince me..but i never calculated her math
i kno she never ment no harm,but her leaving was not no false alarm
crushed me internally and left me a mess,wish i could have died there lay'd 2 rest
i miss her and 4get her at her best,but wen it came true she fail'd the test
hard 2 take-in, wat she was makin of herself,was it hear or something fake-in
might never know a question 2 ask,2 look her in the eyes..ill probably be the last

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a memory i can not throw-out
many ppl see us..and the problem they know-about
i want her back so we can live and 4get
4 her ne thing ill give no rzon 2 live in regret

if im the last ill be 2 afraid,if only i could have changed her she would have stayd
she screamed and had a right 2 yell,sell my heart 2 her and she let it go and it fell
broke it but i still forgive,she trully cared, but the drugs made her mind morbid
im 2 yrs younger but still,ive noticed emptyness wit only she could fill
look at me now 1st time i thought, now shes in my thoughts, a memory i have brought
ive been a wreck evers since 2 years ago,she was somethin special 2 me u kno
now i must wait 4 months 2 come, im still unsure of her uneazy welcome
im terrified so much i cant move,wen she gets back thing wil be good got nothin 2 prove
if only i knew wat she is goin through,its even hard in thought 2 be ther 4 u
i have different views at this out look,like the problem 2 a weel wrote book
2 get her back a joy it would create,id stay wit here 2 the night crew dark and it was late
2 rejoice our past yr wit missing each of us,never more must ther be question 2 our trust
if im the last 2 speak my care,never again will i leave here juss somewhere

memories of her attack me strong
only 2nd time ive mention'd her at song
im scard 2 remember even our good times
even tho i luv here my she caused my sad rythmes
still want u back plz hurry back
im sick of wonderin where ull be at,
wen u should be wit me at home u kno that