{One week in June...}
 

Equality - the phrase lays-in-wait to be taken serious - because the bridge-is-broken between the popular-and-inferiors -
the mist-thickens as the outspoken get tired of words -
while the downtrodden live in whispers - waiting to be heard

imagine...

A young boy arrives home from school - his face streaked with tears
His clothes torn in several places - dried blood crusted-near-his-ear -
He breaks down on the floor in agony - mainly from pains-internal -
Ignored by his Parents he confides in his best friend - his only friend.....his journal...


(Entry 47 - June 12 2003)
Dear diary - Hey its me again, I'm sorry i left you alone
but i knew you'd be right here again when i got back home -
Yeah i know - Its just a bit of blood, dont worry bout it..I'm fine
It's my own fault really - thats why it must happen to me all the time
Yeah thats what it is! so lets talk about something else -
I nearly made friends with someone in class today cuz they asked me for help
I gave them the answers to the math exam for a good deed
cuz im nice like that - but I swear i could hear them laughing at me
ahh well what the hell - its just me being stupid
this kid ruined this other guys shirt and blamed it on me! I didn't do it!!
Yeah i got in trouble for that cuz they threatened to beat me
if i didn't own up to it and take the heat - it's always me
that gets picked on... man, I really can't stand this
Diary do you think it's fair for others to take advantage?

So now he begins to become aware of the void - but he can't understand -
why some people have better lives - as he twiddles his pen in his hand
He holds his diary to his chest - and imagines an equal-life -
before drifting down to rest - where he spends yet another .. sleepless-night

(Entry 49 - June 14 2003)
Hey diary - you won't believe the day I had -
I cant stop crying even now - yeah it was that bad!
First period I got laughed at cuz i dropped all of my books -
and then this girl started pointing and shouting stuff about the way that i look!
she said i was ugly - Diary am i ugly?
Grandma says I'm not but she's dead now...damn... so i must be..
I must be... WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS?
I'M SO WORTHLESS!! why pick on me God? - DID YOU DO THIS ON PURPOSE?!?!
I pray to you every night to put this shit to an end -
but you've done nothing!! - this diaries my best friend!!
so i don't care...aww who am i kidding of course i do!
but i would've fallen apart now Diary..if it wasn't for you!
I Love you diary - you're the only person i can speak to -
when i'm feeling down, i can hold you! Diary I need you!
Please help me get through this and make them go away -
this pain is agony..i don't wanna have to face another day

Now the pain sets in and makes him feel sick in his stomach -
as he lays in bed and wonders - will he get his come-uppance?
Only time will tell - his life is spun-in-clocks
for now he hopes and prays - and puts his trust-in-God

(Entry 52 - June 17 2003)
Diary this is it..i cant take this anymore, I've had enough
I cant think straight...help me out..im feelin back to front
I'm done with this.. there's too much pain caught within me
fuck it.. this is it ..I'M GONNA GET THOSE BASTARDS WHO THOUGHT I WAS WEAK!
Nomore gettin shoved in class..Nomore eating the ground..
NOMORE MADE TO FEEL LIKE SHIT..NO MORE BEATING ME DOWN!
I'm telling you now.. all those who think i'm a nobody..
..are gonna be so sorry..and no..not even you diary..can stop me!
I'm not weak!..I'm gonna get them back for treatin me like shit..making me feel like nothing! making me slice my wrists!!
My life's a gift..and i will not waste it !
the revenge is in the air now diary...i can taste it!
I gotta go now..these feelings are overwhelming so i gotta stop them..
I'll be back later Diary..man..where's my dad's shotgun?

So he leaves the house fueled - his mind seeking revenge
for all this suffering and pain - his eyes tinted-red
Fate is what you make it - and he created his own
and now he just prays for these feelings - to leave him alone..

(Entry 53 - June 17 2003)
Hey diary..I'm back..and guess what? I did it!..
I shot 3 of the motherfuckers man...and no...i'm not kidding..
you should have seen the tears in their eyes
before i cocked the shotgun and fired five times.. it was priceless.. but yet the plan isn't finished
The pain may have Gone but the sadness still lingers..
My life will never be perfect ..it just wasn't meant to be
but i want to thank you my diary..for bein a great friend to me..
I'm sorry i cant be here for you..even though you always have ..
Just remember all the good times we had..please diary.. dont be sad..
I love you diary..you're all i need in this world but now its too late
I have to do this..my mind is filled with too much agony and hate..
I made my own fate tonight..and for that i hope you respect me...
..goodbye diary...please.. never forget me...

He closes his diary and grips it tight within his hand -
as he looks around his room and he finally understands -
You can only be pushed so far - his life was over the edge -
so he takes the gun..and he leaves this world..with nothing...but stress...


Pain can suffocate and destroy..most of us can't deal with it..turn the tables..let it drive you

this shit was hard but it was long as hell

..Uppin..How Sad..^^

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