Graveyards.

Emptyness took over... tho most times.. i was forfilled
& trilled still the amount was big of tears that i spilled
cause of situations,were i could'nt control the frustrations..
& complicated complications,was i made for failure in relations?
Questions like that spooked around in my mind, i was so blind..
towards reality,love.. & handling complex situations of any kind..
Makes u wonder .. why did i have to taste the sweetness of joy
& have to settle for that few breath moments..was it as a decoy.?
Just a lesson from above,to teach me about real life & falling in love
but hello there!! isnt this a little to much? i cant just walk out off..
this, the x really got me marked, & pain passed me without remark..
So yes u can say ive being teached,but a new life is what i embarked.
a fresh start..with the pureness off snow, a chance for me to re grow
& painting a new life precious like a van gogh,w/out the sensation of a talk-show
So i closed off that capter..filled w/ pain , struggles & failure drove me close to insane..
after i closed it ,.. i tryed to look back, but i found something i cant explain..
I couldnt find it ne more, .. it was gone, dissapeard..it appeard like.. death
did i closed that chapter that well?i mean, its ok , but now nothing ne more is left..
I tryed to reverse it,but to bad, just a big black hole remained
still to me unexplained,.. but.. death was allready obtained
& yes i played it wrong with my giving cards,& w/ regards
but did i ask to look back to my memories,.. simalar as graveyards.?