Believe me, I have felt like this many times. Guys can drive girls crazy too because they often did me. There was one in particular in which i loved more than anything in the world and he left just like she did you. So believe me, I know what you are going through. But times do get better, even thou we do dwell on the past. This showed all of your feelings and it is best to get them out. You did an amazing job on this. I loved it. Keep it up.