when I see myself in darkness
I try to think of something other than my lonesomeness
I think of you voluptuousness’
tonight I need your sweet caress
in your eyes my soul finds rest
in my mind the best of the best
is right there within you, inside your chest
I find in you, thoughts in forms of the deepest
ways of mind and surrounding
I see no one around
in my thoughts, I do drown
no one to help my retched soul
I’m lost, I have but one goal
to live, to be there to see the light
to know that I indeed have won my own fight
a fight to see you
a fight for you to see me
it’s a battle not won so easily
I walk down the dark streets
these are the streets of my childhood demise
my thoughts and feelings, I wish I could disguise
thoughts of hatred and disgust
I wish not to walk through these streets, but I must
for the pain that I suffer is not only from my childhood pains
now as my thoughts and feelings drain
I’m a mistake, never wanted
and now inside my own head, I am taunted
for I am growing in times of war
I watch as streets are rattled
homes and stores......tattered
you grow in the same times as I
but there’s a difference... I never bothered to ask “why”
....finally....
you see me and I see you
but the difference is now clear to me, you’re a dream
my one dream, come true
you saw me when I was invisible
to me you’re invincible
in my throat I feel the tightness
forever thinking, but thinking rootless
as I sit here in the darkness
I think, tonight I need your sweet caress

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