Dear Diary:

Its now been a while since I’ve met him, I hope I’m cured
My mind now sees logic, I can now say that I’m pure
However, I’m not for sure that this demon will be gone
For its him who comes, when nothing is going wrong
I walk around being frowned upon, I’m just an outcast
I stop in the street, kids look down and try to act hard
I’m secluded in my room, staying away from the inevitable
Some say I’m ‘special’, yet they all stay uncharitable
But I don’t need them, all they wanna do is harm me
I’m all on my own, where as they have a whole army…

Listen to yourself, you don’t know what your saying
Sound like your praying, but its ME who’s gonna be stayin
See, no one even knows your alive, who cares if you die?
“Who was he? Good riddens if u ask me”, they’ll all reply
Its me who’s gonna provide what you need, listen to me
You try and avoid me, but you know you always hear me
Were brothers, its them that wanna harm us and we’ll fall
But if you listen to me closely, we’ll be standing tall…

…What are you saying? I’m secluded from those who question
How can I trust you? you’re the reason I’m scared of my reflection
Just leave me alone, I want no part of what you have to say
& why should I suffer, because I hate each & every yesterday
I want no part of what you have planned, I want to be normal
Locked away from those I love, all I have is this journal
I see people playing, I hear you saying they want to harm me
All I have is a warm patch in the corner, my life? Hardly
For I am suffering, yet believing everyone of your restrictions
But still I hate you, why cant I win our final confliction…

…Hahaha, you make it sound as your wanted literally
But what your failing to see, is that your part of one conspiracy
You hear that sound? No? I told you no one knows you
Leave this place, people will follow you, that I promise you
Its easy to do, you can end it all any way you want, simple
Just take that ashtray, then simply crack open your temple
Voila! You see, when you do that, everything will be over
Its magnificent, life flashes before you like a supernova
Now end it, you know yourself you have nothing to live for
Why be false to yourself? I mean, even YOU know you differ…

…Perhaps your right, all I think of is why’s there’s fear in me
That’s right, now your beginning to see things clearly
After all, I have succumbed to have feelings of mixed emotions
I’m pleased with your reasoning, you’re saving a lot of commotion
No one wants me here, its you that has my best interests at heart
Now you know what to do now, I’m here, were no longer apart
But I’m scared, how do I know that this is gonna be the finish
With a different heart and a change of mind WE can accomplish


Incase you all didn’t know, the guys a Schizophrenic…and the diary is him talking to the voices in his head.

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