Before people get to know me they always wana go me/
take my kindness for weakness, I feel so lonely.
The world against me it tempts me immensly/
I resent me, wanting to owe God less fees.
Regret my life as it is, don't wana cause more/
said it before now even further from heavens doors.
I'm polite, cos I don't like it you think I won't fight?/
slight change in my mood when you spoil my night.
I act like that to survive in my habitat/
my mentality, 'nah I'm not having that'.
I still feel bad, my future looks dim/
things don't change people, people change things.
Live in sin and I could had so much potential/
live mental so alcohol's essential.
Nothing to hold onto but a bottle, so dependant/
why I keep living when I just wana end it?
Tried to keep a promise to a friend, seemed like an illusion/
a day went past, still using, broke my resolution.
I'm sorry didn't even try now it's just a lie/
they keep wanting to help me but can't figure why.
I guess they see the best in me that rest/
the softness that gets less present in times of stress.
Hope to drink to a seizure, wake up with amnesia/
no memory of this life start again and meet her.