I think this is the first thing I've read from you..and I'm very impressed..the concept was very real and executed perfectly....During some lines my mind wandered away from your own personal message and I pictured myself doing the same thing, which shows how much I felt this poem and understood it I guess...This line was my favorite:

"I just don’t care bout life in general, no end
so why the hell am I even going to pretend
pretend that I can be some one in a world
so I just go to my bed and start a curl"

Very real emotions there, especially real to everyone who has ever felt like that..
I liked this, stay up and keep writing.