Suicidal tendancies resort to killing my enemies/
suicidal from the start, a suicidal pregnancy.
Having them all through the day and night, try to stay all right/
failed today, slit my wrist, blood dripping down the mic.
Actually feel good while I´m in pain, it gives me an adrenelin/
like I´m high, it´s my medicine fuck taking ridelin.
Stuff like that, their´s just no help for me from it/
I don´t suffer from insanity, love every minute of it.
can´t do nothing right, why I get knocked out by dad/
only thing I´ve ever been good at was being bad.
Mom said practice makes perfect than see a psychiatric/
told her no one´s perfect so why even try to practice?
I know of my drinking problem, I drink more than my paps/
that´s a lot of bottles to drop before that record I topped.
Honestly, I´ve tried it once, escaped with broken bones/
sometimes wish I would escaped under a tomb stone.
when I was young I had no friends, faith, fun, I was helpless/
trying to take my own life was the only time I was ever selfish.
Now, whenever I get the urge, I´m quick to discover/
I can´t due to responsibilities as a big brother.
I know I'll raise him though he has a dad/
we got the same paps, a father figure is something I never had.
I´m suicidal, for me this pain is a must, it´s vidal/
this is only a residal but when I die life will be reliable.