Seems like you're really confused. You kinda go back and forth on whether you should do it or not. Looks like you'll end up doing it. I dunno. Not really a whole lot to comment on. Did writing this help you make a choice? It was an okay read. Kind of short and not really much to it. Maybe to get better you could add more details and put more of a description of what's going on? So the reader can kind of paint a picture in their head, you know? Just a thought. Keep writing.