Word, that's true, when you hear yourself for the first time, its always awkward...My advice would be to work on your flow to beats and shit. I have a little lab in my fortress where I record and let my homeboys record, and most people that I listen to flow have trouble with tempo and making shit sound good. So just work on making your flows sound more harmonous and try sort of stretching words, almost as if you were singing, but just don't pull no Ja rule shit