suicidal thoughts,mercilas and manic,no way out from this surpression
judgements of misconceieved ill conceptions to form depression
state of mind dessolate,dark with no way out at the end
a world of hatred,heart,body and mind on suspend
envy,greed,rage and desire..inspire to close-out this life
tall i stood surrounded by bright lights everywhere
so open to feelings..the cold air through my hair
shaking,trembling, my body in a state of convulse
sweat pouring,white as a ghost,i cud feel my heart pulse
thoughts through my mind..not of fear...but loss
why this,why happiness demands such pricely-costs
as i gazed down..the water swirls beneath me
just one more step untill my maker would be forced to meet me
world seems to stop..one last breath and hopefull prayer
open my arms,take the drop..aiming for a bata life in gods care