It was like a sad song- constantly replaying- no delaying- all I could here was them saying -dunny -was- gone-
I could feel you slip- before they said shit- even now I picture it- as my tears mix- with the ink scribbling over my felt tips
-you was something more to me- then the gully cat with a scully cap and a G.E.D-
So of coarse to me your blessed-and I confide in you when I cant handle the stress-conversation in solitude feeling like my mind is gone- but in the essence I sence your presence and feel you respond-
Aint that something from something- cause I/ have you/ but you died,/ here im alive/ with nothing-
Constantly I still write- and resight- over you grave sight- and collaberate memorabilia-
Go to BROOKLYN once a year and chill with la familia-
yet every year changes just the stages- to familiar- seeing your moms living lonely – I feel like im you when she hold me-
Visit the same block- where the gun popped and left us covered in blood both shot-should it be me in the cemetery lot?
Is my fault? My burial im looking at on this asphalt-
When I see your ex- after you left- she lost her clue and found a cue in selling sex-
Plus she got smack- for an attitude-crack-through – a seringe tube- dying slowly-
Just the mention of your name she act like she o.d.-
Damn pa I feel like you owe me-
A goodbye- a reason why- you pushed me to the side-you hurt my pride- as that bullet caught you in my name and you died- you see you lied-
And said( para siempre)- but foever was the error you left all of your (gente)-
Oh and tommy. Don’t swet I raise him as my own- do the things you would got out the hood he got a home- you should see him he grown- since the last and first time you saw him but you didn’t just herd him through the phone-before your life dial toned-
Damn dawg I cant think how you would be filling? And if you would be proud or realized how you left life so forfilling- we even graffittied your name on our project building- with the message you had (it aint till you die you realize we need to stop the killing)
Well look I have to go now the weather aint looking to clear- wish you was here- rest in peace ill se you again next year. R.I.P