yo im stuck in a zone in a hole apparently
growing colder while wondering where my parents be
if they didnt wanna child they coulda waited a while
mom coulda said no but never could to a smile
she was making the men happy but never herself
always drinking never thinking she was killing herself
shed come home late with her neck and face bruised
and i knew she was looking for the drugs she used
losing control her anger paced through the halls
screaming at me while claiming that she hated paul
see my soul hides behind a shadow of itself
cause sooner or later it'll become black itself
and when that happens mommas the first to know
cause thats the day ill leave tracks in the snow
thats right no more being locked in the basement
nomore spankings till my ass matches the pavement
now face it

Im out
im leaving now for good
i did all i truly could
but now im leaving as i should

Now even tho im glad my ass is leaving this place
apart of me will always love your're hung over face
which is sad cause the same face ill miss
is holding the same look thats made when your pissed
and when mommas mad shell punish the good
worse than the bad while soaking up the last
drops of mad dog she had
damn i wish i knew my dad at the same time i dont
cause he could of been the reason my mom looks like bones
from the narcotics mom used on the bathroom floor
but thats better than my mom being the back room whore
see i never wanted a brother or sister at all
i didnt want another mom could blame her faults on
but mom lost her ability for fertilaty
so im happy when i leave no seeds will grow brutality
but just before i leave imma write a note that says...

hook 2x

i hope you got my note on the door i cant take no more
the days seeing you drunk passed out on the floor
days when you blamed me for men leaving you
i was only twelive and most of the time locked in my room!
so how could you blame me? sorry bitch your're crazy
they only left you cause your're just a whore plus lazy
thank God i grew balls enough to show you you're flaws
how many children grow up now without a santa claws?
and i know im not alone theres alot of kids like me
not knowing a parent or having to deal with em fighting
so when i cry im sheding tears for all that will leave
homes just to heal their wounds that now bleed
cause i know someday all like me will become brave
and refuse to learn at a late age how to fuckin shave
but its too late now mom im now ready for life
im moving out from the shadows to where the sun shines

hook (till fade)

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respect list:
tony montana(my main boy fo life)
str8_hood(my crews leader)
lady fiya(respect for a hott femcee)
badgirl(check her out on my open mic)


when you hear me rap consider god gave u a blessin/...
they call me ciara myst cuz im so "shockingly refreshin"/.