LIl topical piece i wrote....
jus looking for sum honest feedback
As the shop assistant serves me in this busy rush hour
I feel an unpragmatic sense of weakness, a loss of power
The way in which i am spoken to...Service with no care?
My body shakes,whats happening?,feels like im not truly there
Unusual,Shocking, only men in a womens department store?
Somewhat solitary confinement, I head for the adjacent door
The handle twists..I feel the sunlight reflecting of startled eyes
Pondering for a minute,wait...This sight seems only to be of guys
I step out,yet unoticed...i take my time to let this truly sink in
not a women in sight...and sex is the last thing im thinking!
Petrified,solitude,even suicide...dessolate landscape i feel torn
Cursing the day i was born...Mens presence i hatredly scorn
You see, eversince birth men have destroyed my confidence
Father from the age of 4..To the boyfreind in West Concinence
This image i see before me cuts,Deep down to the very core
I may wake, im dreaming?...I feel my head against the cold floor
I struggle to conjour my inner self...as i slowly rise to my feet
My house lies two blocks away, i must make it down the street
As i stumble along, the wolf whistles, The putial glaring stare
Reminds me of my awfull life...Of my upbringing in foster care
Men follow in my every step, I wish i had the courage to ask
What the hell is going on here...A sumwhat impossible task
Thoughts of my faith, How can this ultimate nightmare be true?
This isnt at all exciting,these men are animals belonging in a zoo
Thoughts suddenly dissmissed...The whole scene hits a black out
A familiar voice in my ear...Please!...yes!, this is a womens shout
Eyes open, startled...Mother wiping my tears as in my bed i lay
Its all over..but still to this day,i pray for release from my dissmay