I used to have a handle on life then it broke
Now I wakd up open my eyes start to smile but I choke
Cuz I remember how much I hate this fucking world
Every day it's just more and more I unfurl
I've come to say fuck everything, just fuck it
It's a way to hide from motherfuckers so I dont have to admit
How I really feel....whats really the deal
Maybe if I act like a bitch it will help to conceal
The little girl whos really inside of me
But I learned I can't hide it from everyone, some can see
But those people I just push farther and farther away
That's just some of the shit I go through every day
I dont really want to push them away from me
But I just keep pushing at them so they finally flee
Why do I have this attitude and outlook on life
It's because I go through so much strife
But it's about time I change, look for a brighter day
I wish I could go to God but it's no use to pray...