...Heaven...
Feeling ignored, neglected, constantly "un-respected"
The games god plays is like a losing set of "checkers.."
It all started at first, when my wife riped my "heart out.."
Began losing days sleeping, not eating, suffering "hard out.."
only jesus christ himself can contridict my "actions"
judge my whole life...not just my dark sided "fractions"
so everyday i pray on my death bed to see "heaven"
as i go to church to tarnish my past an spill my soul to tha "reveren"
ive done alot of dirty deed's through life i planted wrongful "seeds"
for-filling crack addicts needs to feel pain brings joy as on tha cross jesus bleeds
i commited awful sins an saw satan solemly grin as christ "frowns"
money was thin pushin cocaine by tha pounds now my money in "mounds"
but that wasnt tha life to lead just anutha statistic drawn to "greed"
simplicity is the key now ive grown aware that only this bible i "need"
everything does happen for a reason born into this world a "hethen"
i was blinded to see then holy father all i needed was somethin to belive in
maybe that coulda prevented tha evil things ive "commited"
but as i grasp this bible tha wings of heaven have me "uplifted"
my note book provides my knowlege to all tha things i "know"
as i flat line iv bags sink low........its my time to "go"
...Hell...
Skitsophrenic intentions for the sadistic ending of life..
What problems, Im never fearing any form of worldly strife..
Living on the bad side of the tracks, became my own slogan..
Needing lies to break many men, grasping the truth broken..
My mind, it would seem is an evil chaotic artistic tapestry..
Plagued with horrific visions, Im dead living, actually..
I couldnt seperate, thin lines between whats real and fiction..
Compleatly insane, its unknown to the extent of my addiction..
Fuck it, I am the devil.. Disguised in the skin of a man..
Death, violance, curruption and terror, are all considered fam..
The four horsemen lead my apocolypse, Famine controls my legion..
God, look at me now!! The red dragon, Collapsing the garden of edin..
You see, no longer mortal, slitting my wrists not feeling pain..
But I am numb.. My sight fades as blood runs down the drain..
The sensation is something Ive forgotton for many years..
What have I done, I now know why blood is thicker then tears..
Im ruined.. A distraught mind, staring at a blood clenched fist..
Finally my eyes close, now Im surrounded in an endless red mist.