Sup Varentao..
I had to sit for a minute and think about how I wanted to reply to this piece..Its evident that it goes a lot deeper for you personally than any of us reading it could understand..But its easy to take the lines and morph them into lines that interpret your own scenario, whatever it may be..and just relate to the emotions presented and truly feel it..
I think youre a very talented writer and im never disappointed when i read anything of yours..Your concepts range in wide variety but every piece has the same illness, imagery, and ability to grab hold of its reader..
Feelin this. Keep on and keep blessin us.
peace n propz.