Topic: Seeing The Light


[Life]

Life for me is full of tragedies, to loosing your family...
Never had memories where i'm living life so happilly..
And sadely, im one of the few that never felt any love...
Never had a beloved, now thinkin is there a lord above??
Too many day's i've been shoved, now i jst can't stand it...
Day's of planning how i could make my very own life vanish...
I could never understand it, why my life is so miserable...
And its literal, when i say girls? none of em are original..
My life's too crazy, full of a few real and more fake people..
Causing me use a needle that can be dangerously lethal...

[The First Try]

My life's to horrible, so I attempted suicide two times...
And after only two tries, i realized i jst can't remove life..
The first time i took a knife, nervous n squeezed my fist...
Went at it on my wrist, knowing soon i may be lifeless...
"My life's shit," I shouted when i failed suicide attempt...
Woke up in a hospital, doctor's sayin it was self contempt..
the day i was released, i had great hopes of familly I'd reach...
But noone came at all to see, if I was dead or could even breathe..

[Only Way To Solve My Problems]

After that moment I knew my family had no emotion..
Hatred started growin, knowin they had no care or devotion...
Then i had a some sort of erosion, givin me no fear of death...
Because i knew that i'll have peace when my soul can rest...
N I know best, there's only one way to solve this problem..
It's another attempt at death, where i know that i have fallin..

[The Second Try]

Speakin of fallin, My next attempt is on a ten story building..
Standing on the edge, ready to do it, not afraid and willing...
I lean forward, I can feel the air smoothly gliding through me..
At forty miles per hour, I never had a moment so soothing..
Saw the new's viewing, noticed that I was in everyones T.V.
And for some reason, my family was right there to see me...
At that very moment, I thought they cared, I started believing...
Thinking what am i doing? Now my love ones im leaving....


[Lost Everything]

As I stood up, i saw my body on the floor with no face...
Not ready to embrace, to see what was my after life fate..
I look toward my family and friends, eye's full of tears...
Felt stupid thinkin of how i wasted many future years...
Not seeing them again is what I greatly fear the most...
Knowing that later on to them im nothing but a lonely ghost...
Now all i can do is hope, if i may go through the heaven gates..
Afraid it may be too late, since i never gave or had any faith..

[Heaven Gates]

As I walked toward the gates, taller then thirty eiffel towers.
Sorrounded by God's Power, all located where the clouds we're...
I see a tall man in all white, carrying a book shinning bright light...
It wasn't till he open'd it i realized it was the great, "Book of Life"...
As he searched through pages n pages, he couldn't find my name..
My eye's opened wide, as he pointed towards the flaming flames..
I began begging for my life, sed that "i never did anything wrong"
"I only took my life away, cuz i didn't want to live a bad lfe so long!!"
He didn't look at me at all, from that moment I knew i couldn't win...
I knew I was going to hell, as I was seeing the Light slowly dim...



Book Of Life: It's a book where all the names of people are in that will go into heaven.