hey im from rb and trying to get started in rv heres a drop of mine

harsh winter nights, storming outside
staring at the bible but its god i cant find
only need one more chance in this horrid lif of mine
dark secrets kept from my faimly
i cant stand all this insanity even my dad is mad at me
same troubles come in doubles
seeing someone else when i look in to puddles
not knowing who i am whens it gonna end
rights to defend i can see my soul starting to bend
and so to the devil i lend i can only pretend
i walk outside see my breath in the air
even the gunshots cant brake my hard stare
i say oh god its no fair
but its me the one that all the kids didnt care
hear a wolve howl brings rise to my hair
i know its not long now until my new beggining
heaven or hell? will god forgive me for all my sinnin
its 8 sharp now as i see the car come around
no need to exchange fire now soon ill hear that sound
it was my lower neck one of the bullets seemed to found
engines roar as my body hits the ground
heaven or hell? nothing is in sight
all i see is black and thinking nothing
no brigth white light i shoulda gave up a fight
even my momma will soon forget that night