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I'm an emotional mess, how can I cope with the stress?
How can I be strong enough to stand and try to hope for the best?
My shoulders are gettin' weak, fatigue startin' to break me
The world's colder and each day I fight temptation to take me
Down the wrong path into a life of crime and corruption
It's like my mind is combustin' with every rhyme that's eruptin'
The echoes are gettin' louder, all of the shadows are movin'
I sit in the car bruisin' my head on the window and start choosin'
Who my next victim could be, who's gonna get it first
Schizophrenic, my head is cursed, nine's itchin' to let it burst
I gotta control these thoughts, gotta contain this villain
Best way to explain, the killin's a result of the pain I'm feelin
I don't wanna do it but never seem to resist the urge
I'm standin' on this the verge with a razor and wrist to purge
The blood within my veins that's tainted with demonic cells
Goin' insane but the chronic helps, but when it's all gone it swells
And reaches a boilin' point till I start to shakin' with rage
My heart's breakin' with age, it ain't smart takin' a gauge
Into hands that tremble as unsteady as mine
Last time I couldn't do it, but I think I'm ready this time
Put the barrel in my mouth, close my eyes and I start to cry
Then I feel a spark inside, a voice says it ain't my part to die
Overcome by a calm warmth, like a child in his mother's arms
"You were swayed by another's charms, and he meant you to suffer harm
One who blinded you with lies and deceit till your hope was gone
Till he broke the bond that we shared, but I know you were holdin' on
And now at your lowest point, I see you need me the most
If you let me be your host I assure you freedom is close
You only need repent, ask forgiveness, it ain't much to do
Put your trust in who created you, I won't push kid, it's up to you
I'm here if you'll come to me with broken heart and contrite spirit
There's no need to fight or fear it, you know that it's right ya hear it
Callin' from deep within your soul, but Satan wants you to lose the fight"
Follow me, don't refuse the light, be strong son and choose the right"


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