[Verse 1]

I'ma go smoke some...you think this is a joke, son?
My mutilation is way beyond meer purification...
In these days...we need more than loving waves
Some aren't brave...and they all end up in thier graves...
You just don't know the pain...what is my name..?
It goes way beyond pleading that I'm fuckin' insane...
I thought I was loved...well I don't know if it's done
But the way I'm shunned, enough to make a fool outta anyone...
The story is...fuck, I'm still just mourning this...
My girl Jenn is cheating on me wit Jordan watta whore she is...
No...dismiss those thoughts...my temper is just hot...
But what happened to the love I thought that couldn't be bought..?

[Chorus]
My decison...what good is it..?
I'm abandoned and my pain is exquisit...
My love...what good has it been..?
I'm abaondoned...will I ever feel love again..?

[Verse 2]

I ask my mom...if she would strive for happiness...
No matter the circumstances...romantic dances...
Somebody to hold...somebody who would alwasy understand...
Holdin' hands...I guess I was just in a no-man's land...
I get so pissed...but it was such a perfect gift...
I raise my fist...and I weep...when I remember and reminice...
I pray to God everynight...and I beg him for it to remain...
My soul is trapped, my self-esteem, all's that's left is a grain...
I talk to her on the phone...I just don't sense her love anymore...
If there was a way to go back, I would take any and every door...


[Chorus]
My decison...what good is it..?
I'm abandoned and my pain is exquisit...
My love...what good has it been..?
I'm abaondoned...will I ever feel love again..?

[Verse 3]

My end is near...I can sense it, smell the fear...
I pray one last time before I slit my neck ear to ear...
If there's one thing to learn from me...don't be fated...
Don't make pain hated, because dreams are over-rated...
It's time to commit suicide...how many more youths will die?
I have lossed all hope...well I guess this is my stupid side...
But before you criticize, put yourself in my eyes, in my shoes...
Cause when somethin' is perfect...it's almost always too good be true...

[Chorus]
My decison...what good is it..?
I'm abandoned and my pain is exquisit...
My love...what good has it been..?
I'm abaondoned...will I ever feel love again..?

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