First time i've been in a topical battle.. just to let you know

Havin rough times, definitly nothin thats in this world could save me,
I was sure we surely would never end up like that girl and Shady,
Questioned your loyalty cuz Troy and me fuckin heard you ain't, see,
Cuz of that I came home on time, cuz i wasn't stayin out early lately,
Walked into the bedrom, and removed was your trusted disguise,
Never woulda guess I'da walked in and seen you fuckin a guy,
Everything you said was nothin but lies, so while I stand by the door,
I'll reminisce on all the times and wonder if i should put my hand on the 4,
I loved you... From the bottom of my heart, you cut me deep,
While I go downstairs and start to remove that trusty sheath,
I don't know how to explain my feelings now, but I will when,
Im done writin this note and I can't write no with this ink pen,
Im thinkin of the future, and damn what I been thinkin is awful,
When I should be thinkin bout the present, now wheres my gun run off to?

And yeah.. I am crazy.. lol