...the situation...

thought's of discomfort running thru my soul..
felling outta place,only the devil knew my goal..
no looking back,I continue to strive forward never to return..
no fear of the road ahead,I relise no matter what im gonna burn..
I try to hide my current state of mind,closing my eye's..
the allmighty god's aware of my truth,exposing my lie's..
am I destined for heaven,or just be frozen in time..
is it god that i see,or satan that arose in a line...
Im feelling outta reach,As if there will never be a return...
thought I seen a bright light,but now i relise it burn's...
my mind is so empty,body gone weak and dull...
Still a sprit lost in the maze,yet it allready feel's like a week in hell...
no communication,word's are distort,im not thinking well..
I feel like i am searching for a place,but have no clue what ill find..
My vision's gone blank,All I see is blue in my mind..
this sort of situation isnt new to my kind..
im unsure what to expect,unaware of the outcome...
love isnt present,it's been year's since I felt some..
im wanting to see heaven,but im'a just let my doubt run.



...how i got in the situation...



i get teased,bully'd,kicked and beat..
i hate my life,every day I am forced to admit defeat..
coming home with black eye's,just to end up reciving more..
no one I can trust,even my mum's a deicving hore..
I start to think of death,no one will miss me,im not worth grieving for..
tear's start to run from my eye's and down on my face...
is my life so worthless,that Im'a die without even a trase..
im sure no one will even notice if i just disapear..
I smile thinking of heaven,"damn it must be bliss in there"..
the knife is now sharp and my wrist is bare..
a quick clean cut,now my mission is clear..
I dont want anyone to walk in,I listen in fear..
not one person has love for me,Im sick of wishing they care..


~~Real~~

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