It's hard to explain with words but I'll try anyway. When I saw how long it was, I didn't really feel like reading it all but I'm glad I did. The topic is similar to the situation I'm in right now, that's what me read the whole poem. As soon as I started reading, I simply had to continue. The words and expressions you used resemble my emotions at this moment. At times, it was a bit creepy to see how someone else unintentionally describes exactly what I'm feeling...

I loved it.

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