topic: how and why to commit suicide
why:
girls on the hospital bed surrounded and crwoded by the doctors
bothered that i cant bring my shrouded mind i can only proctor
fathered the child the hands are awaitin to recieve but i need to release pee
unknowing in the absence of my leave my wife had managed no screaming
wondering how she didnt, no one paid attention to the line thats gone flat
matter of fact my boy has the imbilical cord, round his neck its wrapped
drastically imapactin my emotion but within minutes i heard music
moving round i realize its my phone i awnswer it and feel like pukin
knew it was my mother but somthing sounded udderly different
listen to crying and soft voices my mind is swirling but im missin
the key vision of that her driving in bad weather was a bad decision
lifting my spirits to the sky as i pray for her life and for her not to die
wonder why all these tragedies managed to kill my remainig families lives
strive to keep myself alive as i cry and as i sulk an walk out the front door
reminsice how i lost my wife, son, and mother and i dunno what to live for
how:
have no reasons to go on living so my minds decision is to take a few pills
usually used for thrills but now theyr used to kill the man who had it all until
it was taken but im going to a sleep inwhcih i wont awaken cuz this life im hatin
debatin on how many to take which ones can kill me faster so i can rest with relations
created a stae of mind which i can no longer handle so next to the bottle i will lie
rely on it to do its job but i awaken in the hospital wondering why im still alive
tried to commit suicide so i know now its jail time pending above my dazed head
deadly combinations of pills couldnt kill the will of something keein me from dead
treatin me instead and now im confused and i see my moms car on the news
abusing my memories of how i herd her last breath so its suicide i will choose
losin my mind from the deaths that rest in my head so i try to find a knife
i rush on to any operating room not caring of the doctors trying to save a life
i grab the scalpel and hold it to my neck and i look and all eyes rest on my hand
standing there my life flashes before me and surely i ingnored for i am only a man
can only handle so much and so much for living so with that scalpel i make an incision
vision of the doctors fade before me for this lesion on my neck was cuz with percision
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