"Suicidal Thoughts"
Livin' life and learning lessons, despite life's agressions
fights with in, its mental supression, sentimental sessions
wita psychiatrist forcing out feelings, tormenting and revealing
scorching yet concealing, feeling con'd by how its appealing
now I'm dealing, with what i've got from a life not worth living
this knife n cursid sinning, cutting wrist, how worse is it gitting
soon its thoughts of thrills, drinking alchole and lots of pills
my soul rots and peals, the emotions left i cannot feal
reaching physical peaks, cutting as the blood begins to leak
muscles ache and creek, there's nothing this pain can teach
pain is releasing pain, in truth what is possibly gained
bad memories imprinted with in my brain, unremovable stains
hard to sustain, idea's jumping outta context, must restrain
regular relations and fealings, hard to just uptain
physicaly and mentaly, and now i begin to crumble
its simply not just simple see, my legs have begun to stumble
I git clumsier and clumsier, and my life just doesnt change
from the knife to my vains, I shackled my soul in chains
and every day its the question, whats this same cycle got
so god give me suggestions, than just these suicidal thoughts
~Babz~