the Fury of Mother Nature:
"death never came"
having been an overseas parent, i was losing my marriage.
days away from the courtroom & a month past miscarriage.
signed & complete, i was given limited visits.
so i left without kisses & some unfinished business.
they might change their minds, knowing how i feel inside.
since im losing them, they should lose me. an eye for an eye.
started to pour out my will & finished with a poka-dotted letter.
every tear symbolizing a moment i remember, i'll never forget her.
kissed & ceiled it together... attached my wedding ring.
my past has seen worse than anything hell or heaven bring...
so many things, so many reasons not to be alive.
why not die? im sure love wont have limits on the other side.
in lou of suicide, i tightly blindfolded my eyes in fear...
...i would fail my death intended, as i sprinted down the ocean pier.
the moment was nearly here: "God dont mistake this death...
...& comfort those ive left," i prayed as i took my final breath.
i could hear my heart slowing, i counted fifteen beats.
so i swallowed more water & survived fifteen blinks.
i think i cheated death, but thats the last thing i wanted.
this was immortal & freaky, let alone highly uncommon.
maybe my life does have purpose...i inhailed for an entire minute.
so i kicked to the surface...
...thinking life was better off, when i could actually end it.
finished, good luck paramik.
DONT SWAY.