holy shit eh, thought i had it tough, upmost sympathy for ya eph, althou havnt lost anybody in my life, can relate to havin such terrible "luck" in life, feel ya pain (probly not but crazy appreciation for you to stick out all that hardships)....hope your life turns round for ya, sounds like it will in bout a year, haha......ps, im diggin your text/topical shit, plus you are pretty hot, lol