Heaven
Kaput homes for me, I die they still wouldn’t mourn me.
I always have been confused, from the entire I been abused.
You got to pronounce it loud, even if not happy and proud.
My existence is naught, but a shadow, God I’m so shallow.
My abhorrence turns to bitterness, but I stare at the winter mist.
Tears continue to sad fully pour, just want to see those shores.
Heavenly father show me my way, so I can live another day.
Life gets better but all falls on me, and I’ve been so lonely
Katrina! You were there for me, and he wasn’t you see.
I questioned Gods fate, and now it has bowed to hate.
But god made me and I allow god to take me, so gracefully
I found her, don’t want to lose her, or forever be in shame like a loser
Hell
I experienced hell on earth, and it always approached to me first
Losing friends was the worst, and more worst wasn’t working it out
I couldn’t change or help them to change their minds, just like mines
I was hurt by them kicking on me nothing but dirt and to laugh & revert
Getting my feelings spat on, that made me think I wouldn’t last long
You wouldn’t know what it means to not be missed, not to reminisce
All it would have took was one letter, and I would have thought of you better
I saw an endless inferno, so I thought to write one last time in my journal
Since the day I was born I saw nothing but living hell, I thought I wasn’t well
Till I knew and worshiped him, the one who died for my on going sins.