things just fly the time jets by one hour a minute
its crazy i never thought of it like that
these seconds it takes me to breathe
i should close my window its getting cold
i remember it all sitting there my mind racing through your words
picking up the ones that meant the most. but i couldnt
i stopped to let it sink in but i forgot the breath
your heart was racing. and the clouds were below my feet
i'm crippled by this pain it works its way
from the bottom on up , this one moment is mine
and i can't get a clear head. where is my perfect mind?
i need this like i need the reasons
i seriously sit here for hours and let it all pour out
every word all because there is something wrong with me
i've expressed it but they never believed me
till she gave it a chance and read everyword
she cried for a hour and didn't goto sleep that night
there was something a little more. it was not mine
it was the connection that she made
it wasnt what she believed in it was what she was told
these words they would hold every emotion
every fear , and she would roll up her sleeves
and lay there . they are so ignorant she would mumble
and they would never forgive her. but their lack of words
was what scared her the most ,
and here am i standing this next to me
i need to stop and breathe.
i need these clouds all around me
if you get what i'm saying . then for once you have
the permission to really truley speak
its like running into walls because they never understand at all
and i can just sit there and nod my head
hear me now i know a girl who knows the ways
of what we all want to know
i believe she speaks only with sighs
because the tears on her pillow
never gave her a chance to let go
all i can say is i'm sorry i was never there
and when you read this
what i hope you get from this just listen
just read listen to the silence listen to the the voices of next
but when you read this lets captivate the real meaning of this
this ramble this bliss
if there is anything it was always...
The Emotions

this was a free write.. i thought it i wrote it down ..
no edits this is my 3rd drop of the night
its 1 am these were just floating in my head
i had to drop them
and if you believe me than i would love to see your face
it just comes to me i can't help it.
it was bottled up for so long and i'll stop now
before you get the chance to see the side of me i told you i never had .
in times of despair i would turn to her.
but we drifted apart and she met a new guy .
its ok i'll survive because she was my best friend .
she lives a million miles away
and i'm going to fly out there and see her for the first time in a long time.
its going to be different it won't be summer
and we won't have the time we once had
lets see where this ends up
i'll write about it when i get back
and i know she won't see everything eye to eye
but as long as i get my chance to see her again
everything should be alright