Before I lay me down to sleep
I must confess how much my soul does weep

It's like I've died
Though I haven't cried
Nor have I sighed
By now I'm used to the world passing me by

I admit I've made my mistakes
For some I've paid dearly and now my heart aches
There are few things worse than when a special bond breaks
But then why does drama happen, if it's all for God's sake?

Better yet, what have I done
To deserve this punishment from the Prodigal Son?
For this reason my mind has been divided instead of being a whole one

Now as I get down on bended knee
And pray, ask and beg thee
To forgive me

For my sins
But with each new day they begin
All over again

I pray that you give me strength where I grow weak
I ask you give me hope so that I may inspire the meek
I beg that you bring my life light, so that I will no longer be forced to search in darkness for that which I seek

I thank you for all of your many blessings
Even if at times you leave me second guessing
I'm sorry for wanting more but my soul is not resting

I don't know why
I lie
In my bed at night
And can't sleep but cry
Never able to wipe the tears from my eyes
Not wanting to live nor wanting to die

In the end I'm left wanting
Step to the plate intending to swing for the fences but I wind up bunting

As I grasp my hands and bow my head
I start to believe you'll guide me ahead

Helping me to follow the right path
Trying not to venture off so I won't feel your wrath

Finally I close my eyes and utter my prayer
Wondering to myself if anyone's really up there