NO, no, no, no
I cant believe it
Just cant conceive it
Thoughts in pursuit of thoughts through my mind
When? Where? How far along?…. Is it even mine?
No!
Coursing are ideas of abortion through portions of my brain
But soon forcing those notions which will of course be slain
Exterminate the bearer of my torch? My flame? My name?
No!
But I aint ready
Finances far from steady enough to carry this cargo
A load which substantially outweighs heavy
My wallet is riddled with holes already
A baby will only transform it into confetti
My life is a mess
So much stress
If I was catholic I’d have not enough hours in a day to confess…
What’s this, a test?
Yes!
Yes I shall gladly accept
And to pass, no need to study, all I need is 1 attempt
1 try, 1 life.
No room for error, mimic my father but make things right is my one plan
Funny how my sons birth into childhood catalyzed my birth as a man

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