Suicide Note
As I awoke in the morning I noticed, outside, it was pouring
Time to get up and do nothing, I got no job, my life is boring
Making me some lunch, I grab the knife, and began to wonder
Would anyone care if I took my life, went on an eternal slumber
But I always wonder about death, it's cuz im always stressed
Because at the end of the night, Im the one who is gettin left
Alone, this community is cold, with there eyes they keep staring
Feindish looks bewaring, this life is dark, and unimaginably scary
I live in a 2 room apartment, with no carpet, so it hurts your feet
Most of the money i got pay bills, so for me, it's hard to just eat
Tried sellin on the streets, but with that came police, time in jail
So for a while there, my grocery money, went to my own bail
I sit down and watch some tv, and reminice about old memories
The phone rings, this girl sayin she comin over, I said u better be
Eventually i hear a knock at the door, I rush over to greet her
Open the door, she's lookin sexy as hell, staring at her curves
Invite her in, we both sit down, i make light talk for a little while
Flirtin with her, I look in her eyes, she looks in mine then smiles
I told her i need to shower, and she asks if i want any company
With that said, i pitured her naked, on top, and crazy humpin me
But I said no, and went on with my business, and took a shower
I herd her creep sometime later, it hadnt even been but a half hour
She yanked the curtain open, and i noticed she was holdin somthin
Then she said, "Look." and took what she had held, like it was nothin
Slit her fuckin throat, and then I screamed and ran out to the table
Tried to pick up the phone and dial for help off of the nine-11 label
As I was talkin i notcied a piece of paper, i put down the phone
Opened the note, read it, it said how she didnt want to be alone
I never shoulda declined the offer to fonicate, but now it's too late
Then at the end it said, "This is my letter of love, lust and anger.
So thanks for leaving me alone," i think i guess i shoulda banged her,
"Im suicidal, you never shoulda left me to be a threat to myself.
If you woulda just fucked me, i'd have lost stress and it coulda helped.
So this is the last thing you will read, i loved you, wanted us to be, i hope...
That seeing me die, is great, cuz now all you got is my suicide note"