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L.E
From: Edmonton, Alberta, Canada |
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IP:
...I sit at the desk that has given me pressure on my chest...
...Image of death in my mind, why have I failed God's test...
...I begin to scribble down, jot letters that hold my repentance...
...Left defenseless, I die even more, I cry even more each sentance...
To My Family...
None of this is your fault, we have had a tough going...
...Whether it was rain or snowing, we had just quit growing
It all started when Pa died, please let my explain myself...
...These are the reasons that I am gonna end the pain I dealt
When Pa died, the world collapsed, and the stars vanished...
...Oh such a lonely planet, why do we face something so tragic?
The words that ran through our heads........He's really gone...
...That drove so many people so crazy.......Even Dad and mom
Dad started drinking even more, and Mom couldn't take it...
...Instead of encouraging Dad, she tried a fast way to escape it
It's my fault that they're divorced, I already faced realization...
...The skies are ragin', so I'm gonna end the tears, my eyes are blazin'...
To My Friends...
To the few that I have, please don't take this as offence...
...Do you love me as a brother, or do you hate me in a sense?
Do you use me and abuse me, and find that so amusing....?
...I can't even tell anymore...so this is the path that I am choosing
You say don't do it, what is the message from that motive...?
...If you truly did care for me, then you should have shown it
I sit alone, cold, drink a brew have a smoke in the dark...
...You don't even have the guts to talk to me, and I'm not too far
So this is what I am saying to you, at my time of death...
...If you did care for me, then you should have shown respect
But no you pushed and reject, pushing me to do this...
...And if you didn't care for me, than I guess I'm the one who's stupid....
Signed,
Chad W. McGhie
...I fold the piece of paper, put it in an empty envelope...
...I hang the rope, and I tie the noose around my throat... |