As a child

Sun burning my back, ice-cream in my hand, its June
Momma calling says we “oughta be going home soon”
She’s so bruised, still hurting from last nights assault
I’m her shield, convinced her none of this was her fault
I slide my hand in hers, then i walk silently by her side
I’m her only joy in life, in me she’s instilled her pride
She secretly dieing inside, something she won’t show
One of her qualities that evidently on me she bestowed



Adolescent

Wind softly blowing, my characteristics finally showing
family in disbelief that I hold a knowledge that’s growing
Stopping me from flying they’re tugging my heart strings
An ambition to see sights but I just can’t spread my wings
Sadness as I try to hold on, my heart never being released
I feel alive, my brains working but my feelings deceased
stuck in a situation my emotions im about to surrender
Needing help no longer acting as my mothers defender


Adult

Tears fall from my eyes, gently start to roll down my face
My child I embrace, she knows grandma we can’t replace
A vicious circle I still see her smiling, among the crowd
She’s proud that I’m doing everything exactly as I vowed
Even though without her my life just feels so incomplete
I still have that one memory now captured on concrete………

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